Giving up faith in god (this week)

@BirdLover90 Hello I am Tye.. Nice to meet you and I seen your post and wanted to just tell you as someone who does believe in God and His son Jesus .. that yes it is hard to understand why things happen or they do not happen and why we see some doing so much better then we are or they seem to be..

I like you have been through so much in my life starting in my childhood and clear up until this day I am soon to be 55 years old.. I have many days I do question God and how he works and doesn't work on days when i am at my lowest and just not well or hurting physically and mentally ..

I am not here on this site or anyplace trying to get People to Believe or Not to Believe I can only say what works for me and I know for myself..

I just know that when I am down and Pray and talk to God I feel his presence .. I feel better and know that He can not fix everything and everyone because we our the ones that are in control of our lives to a degree of course ... I could not control my parents or my siblings and their actions and what they did with their lives I could only do my best and try and help them up intil the day they died.. I Prayed that they would stop the drugs and drinking and just making life really hard on me and others and yes their self but they choose to continue it was not God that made them do these things because they did believe in God except for my Brother because he felt he was not good enough or God could not forgive him...... One month before he passed away we sat after our step dads funeral due to drugs taking his life and he knew the bible from front to back and was sooooooooo intelligent and loving and so sweet and kind.. but my Brother was upset and said Sis I know I am going to Hell for all i have done in my life.. I said Jimmie you just said that you believed you were going to Hell if you believe there is a Hell then do you Believe there is a Heaven and he said Yes so i said then You do believe there is a God then even tho you do not say you do he said Yes I guess I do then.... I said then Believe that if You ask God for forgiveness he will forgive you and accept you into his Kingdom .. He did not commit the sins you did he did not make you sin you did this.. so right now right here will you accept God and his Son and ask for Forgiveness and know you are forgiven...... He said YES.!! I said now You can relax and know that You are a child of God and he loves you and always has..... 5 months later Jimmie went to sleep smoking dropped it and caught his apartment on fire and tried to get out .. he fell and hit his head taking his life.. I miss him everyday but I am so thankful before he left this world he knew he was forgiven and that he made it into Heaven with others there waiting..

My Point is I would rather take a chance in believing then not believing and it sure feels good to have God on my side through my surgeries and other stuff and I have seen him heal and I am grateful and thankful.... 2017 I went in for brain surgery and I had a prayer circle of people around me before going into surgery and I am someone that is so scared of medical things .. you name it I am totally panicked lol....... But during the prayer circle around me .. A calmness came over me and the anxiety left and fear and I laughed and said lets roll I am ready and in the operating room I was cracking them all up..... They started to give me the meds to put me to sleep and then I seen a beautiful calmness come to me and then I woke up which seemed like 10 mins later but it was 6 hrs later .. I woke up calm and feeling No pain and No worries and having someone yelling in my face You are Agoprhobic so you hate people lol.... wow well she needed Prayers lol not a fun thing to wake up too lol

I then think about other things like car wrecks where I was injured but I was alive it could have ended my life but I do believe that this is when God steps in and saves us and we do not always see it or believe it .... like anything in a split second life can end but it doesn't so who helped us then or was it that kept someone alive or safe... ?

Satan is also a huge factor he is there to rob and steal from us and turn people away from God and Heaven because he was kicked out of Heaven for his actions.. So he is gonna work hard to take and take and take and push people.

Does God Cure all No he doesn't , Does he allow people to die... Yes he does because this is part of life we are born we are only vessels passing through here .. We must also put in the work we need to do and then God steps in even when we do not realize it and helps us out. But we have to believe and trust in him and ourselves and what are we doing .

When we see people living what we think is an awesome life can sometimes be very deceiving because we do not see their heart or hear what they are saying beind closed doors or what they are going through ... they may be in debt to where they will never get things paid off or may be fighting an illness we know notihing about or their marriage could be a sham that we think is perfect.. what we see or believe could not be True... Some are very good at making it look like their life is so awesome to everyone else and on social media which is a good example .. I know way to many that fake things and make people believe they live a fairy tale life..

I do have quesitons for God I sure do when I get there and if I get there lol.. I do wanna know exactly why babies or small children are born sick or get sick . I also know we are not to question God but that is not so easy .

For me I also love movies like Gods Not Deaf !! and The Shack - this one is a so hard to watch but is so teachable !! . Heaven is For Real is another great one.. I love true story ones also like Heaven is for Real and some others..

I do hope things getter better for you in life and I know it is so hard and not fun and just hard to get why things happen for some but not us. (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))

I love the Poem - The Dash , another teachable thing to see.

Your life your choice to choose to believe or not believe ..

I am so sorry if my comments have upset you or hurt you or anything I am just a chatterbox and Love people..

Take care.. Peace and Love, Tye Not a perrfect person here at all.. No perfect person exist and no perfect life exist..

P.s. I did not share about my Mom she passed in 2014 when she was passing she whispered to me I see Chuck my step father and Jimmie my Brother ... She said they are home waiting for me I said Mommy please go to them and she replied are you coming .. I said yes Mommy I will be there with you all when I can get there okay ... she said okay Love you... So she seen them waiting for her and that helped me so much to deal with losing her to cancer .. She was heart broken over losing them so she got to go home too them . She accepted God and was Saved months prior..

Okay bye for now and please know I am around the site !

Tye

@BirdLover90 yep you got it similar to santa and the tooth fairy. Just take the lessons learned from the good book and try to live life the right way thats all their is to it. dont over think it. the point of it is just to get people not to sin. really they only made religion to make capitalism. it was instead of bringing chickens to church u exchange them for money ( gov ) then bring money to church . gov and church win. u are still u in your situation they dont care. they just want money