Recipe for positivity

I don't think I ever told anyone what actually triggers me. I couldn't actually figure it out because it was a feeling, not a thing or a place.

Feeling distant from ones I love is triggering for me. Everyone has friend(s) that come and go and it seems quite normal in an adult life. But I low-key can't stand it and I feel petty because of it. " Oh, now you want to say hi", " You must be really lonely to finally reach out to me" type of feelings or sometimes I even sit on the part where I response back.

I strive to make everyone I love feel loved by reminding them how constant they are in my mind. I think I started doing it after my final suicide attempt. Life is too short to make your love for someone go unnotice. But as I got older and people I love became distant from me, I feel sad and at times bitter.

I am going through part of life when all my friends are now either busy with family or moving to advance their career including my one and only family, my sister.

How do you keep your thoughts positive, how do you direct your negative feeling to positive? Any input, advice, your story would be much appreciated. Thanks everyone and happy Monday!