Sexual abused story
When I was 9 or 10 a person in my neighborhood grabbed my face and kissed me and grabbed my bottom , it lasted for a second and a half , I got disgusted , he was 16 at the time and on that same year that person grabbed my and rubbed his penis on my bottom for 3 seconds then pushed me to the ground and ran away , same year also , a cousin of mine asked me if he could rub his penis against my bottom naked , I accepted and in return he gave me a blow job , I was not pressured by him but what really makes me sad is because iam a boy and I was 9 and didnt understand anything and I feel disgusted , iam not gay , iam into girls but I just want to forget that past and move on but before I sleep that memory comes up and hurts
please say somethings that can help me forget about this past
@powerfulPomegranate4427
I'm sorry about what happened to you.
Traumatic events like that are hard to forget. As humans, when we experience something very unpleasant (like you have) our brain will remember it pretty much forever so that our body knows to avoid similar experiences in the future. And it happened when you were young and in your formative years where your brain is starting to forge memories.
Unless you want to try some pseudoscience like hypnosis maybe that could help you forget. But I can't really say, not enough evidence for that.
You can't really forget something like this. You can only get over or move past it. See what lessons you can take from it. Then move on with your life, focus on school, get a girlfriend, play a sport or whatever. And realise whatever happened to you was not your fault, you didn't deserve such a thing, it wasn't punishment, etc. Its just life and sometimes you just gotta roll with it and keep going forward.
@exampligratia
i can
@powerfulPomegranate4427
That's awful that happened to you and you didn't deserve it.
I did remove a similar post you made from another topic about resources, as it was unrelated.
Do you mind if I move this topic to Trauma Support? It's more likely to be seen by people who can help you out there.
