So angry and frustrated!!

OMG I am so angry right now!! I am sick of being peoples scapegoats and there freaking punching bag.. I don't need people always putting me down and saying Im in the wrong!! If Im in the wrong ill admit to it but this situation I am not in the wrong. Why must I always be the one who people take their crap out on. Do they not see that I am dealing with far more than I can cope with at the moment. Way to bring my emotions and feelings about myself down.. Maybe I am in the wrong. Maybe I've always been. It would make sense that their is something wrong with me when people just constantly use me however they feel.. This is just enough I am not feeling well and now i feel worthless again. Maybe the world would be better without me in it. Maybe my mum was right in trying to force me into death.. I don't know anymore