The WHITE WEDDING DRESS FROM HELL
THIS DUMB STUPID DRESS, THAT REEKED HABIC IN MY LIFE. FROM THE TIME THAT I BEGAN TO THINK THAT I MIGHT WANT TO GET MARRIED, I HAD DREAMS AND HOPES OF HOW MY LIFE COULD CHANGE. SOMEONE TO CARE AND SOMEONE TO LOVE.
BUT WITH MY TAINTED LIFE OF SEXUAL ASSAULTS EVERYONE SAID: "YOU AIN'T NO VIRGIN SO WHITE YOU CAN NOT WEAR." CONFUSION AND DISILLUSION NOW FILL MY HEART AS IT IS BREAKING.
WONDERING WHY THIS IS AN ILLUSION. FOR THE FIRST TIME I WILLINGLY GIVE MY CONSENT TO A WEDDING THAT I DID NOT PICK. YOU NOW ROBBE ME OF A DREAM FAR FORESEEN. IT'S NOT ENOUGH THAT I GAVE MY CONSENT TO SOMEONE ON SIGHT UNSEEN.
THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO ME WERE NOT MY FAULT
YET YOU PUNISH AND TAKE WAY MY DREAM. IN MY MIND IT MAKES NO SENSE SO TODAY I WILL CHOOSE.
I CHOOSE, WHITE DRESS AS PRETTY AS YOU PLEASE
THEN LIFE UNFOLDS IN A DIFFERENT SCENE. LIFE FOR ME. WHITE REPRESENTS PURE AND THAT YOU'RE NOT WRETCHED AND USED LIKE A PIECE OF DIRT. YOU AND THAT WHITE DRESS. Ii DONE MY BEST TO STAND MY TEST, YET YOU FLEE FROM ME. IT WAS NOT MY FAULT. NOW THE DAY TO WEDD IS AT HAND. NERVOUS AND SCARED I WALK TO THE STAND ME IN MY WHITE WEDDING DRESS. SHAKING AND TREMBLING I TAKE MY PLACE WHILE EYES SNARL AND LIPS THAT CHATTERED, Ii IN MY WHITE WEDDING DRESS. I BOLDLY TOOK THE OATH TILL DEATH DO US PART. JUST TO STOP THOSE CHATTERING LIPS AND DISCUSSING LOOKS. NEVER NEW A MAN BY CHOICE JUST THE ONES WHO TOOK WHAT THEY WANTED, FEAR SITTING AT THE HEAD OF MY TABLE WHILE THE MAN BESIDE ME EXCITED HE WAS, AS HE RECITED THE SACRED VOW TO LOVE AND HONOR AND TO CHERISH TILL DEATH DO US PART. ME IN MY WHITE DRESS THEY SAID WHAT SHAME THE GIRL IS A SLUT IN HER WHITE DRESS, OH MY WHAT A MESS. THE LIE IS HER IN THAT WHITE DRESS.
THAT WAS THE DAY I REALLY MESSED UP ME IN THAT WHITE WEDDING DRESS IT WAS NOT MY FAULT
@scarletPear1945
I'm sorry people have treated you in this way. You deserve happiness and autonomy reguardless of your past.
@scarletPear1945
Why should I be denied the right to choose to wear a white Wedding dress when the sexual assaults were not my fault.As a little girl, it was always my dream to be adorned with a white Wedding dress. Now because I have been stain not by choice.Yet you take away my dreamTo adorn myself in a white wedding dress. I tried my best to make sense in my head the words you pierced me with, words that cut my flesh so deep. Words that ring so strong with echoes so loud I could not stand proud.
You added to my shame and stained my white wedding dress even more as you accused me of being some hore.You defamed me even the more with wicket tongues I abhorred. It was not enough I gave my hand to bewed a man that I never knew a stranger was he but you picked him for me Although I said so clear and plain this man I do not love you made me unite in Holy matrimony. With words You"ll learn to love him..Then left me in his care. Me in my white wedding dress.
@scarletPear1945: learning to accept what is:
it's a bitter pill to swallow but as the saying goes, "it is what it is".
Life can dish out some hard thing in our life. Trying to learn acceptance is the hardest lesson for me.
Wondering if this lifestyle is all there will ever be. Wondering the purpose of this lost soul in a world of such distress and sorrow. Does the tide ever turn in a different direction? or must we just endure,? Watching and waiting and hoping and Praying will this tide change direction? Warring in a battle you are not equipt to fight. Blood being scattered like some battlefield, Innocent lives now wast away. all because It is what it is.
Survivors now gasping to cling to life, smudged with the drug of what once was, lost in a body that holes no soul of the man was lost in the battle. I wonder if my soul I will find and if the tide will ever turn in my direction.
