(Trigger Warning) Dear 12 Year Old Me (TW)

Dear 12 Year Old Me,

Hi. It's a few-years-later-you. I am so sorry. I promise, things are going to get better, but they're going to get worse first. You're going to survive both your attempts in the next 2 years. It's going to be okay, I promise. There will be flashbacks and triggers and it's going to suck. Massively. Eventually you're going to contact RAINN, and a nice lady is going to help you. She listens and believes you. Also, trust your instincts when it comes to new people. You've never been wrong. I am so sorry, but you're going to get sh scars after someone screams at you. They fade a bit, but they won't disappear. They can always be hidden, don't worry about that. It's going to be rough, but eventually, you're going to be clean from sh, and it will be good. I promise you, a better coping mechanism is coming. The girl in your lit class will let you copy her math homework after you have a panic attack in the bathroom. It's okay if you never want to touch a sweatshirt again. Your triggers are valid, your feelings are valid. I love you, also please, don't step on that scale in a few years. You'll recover, but it's not fun.

All My Love,

A-few-years-later-you

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