WHY IS CPTSD CONSIDERED PAST IF YOU GO THROUGH TRAUMA DAILY?
I keep hearing about CPTSD being a past traumatic experience That the brain or subconscious remembers and has not processed properly causing all types of issues. What I have not heard is if this has been an ongoing trauma to some degree Then it is not Post but rather Pretrauma. So processing the old gets pushed up and the expectation is changing faulty thinking but that is all you know. Comming present just puts you in your state of trauma you are living today.
I try to give it a voice, I try to get it heard, but the silence of yesterdays ring in my ear. I say loud and I say clearly: CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW?
I speak like thunder and yet disregard. I try to embrace all that you serve in hopes that some fine dish will emerge. Pain and hurt yet bind my mouth while shackles and chains retain my hands and my feet. Bound shackled and silenced. Wondering if it ever will change.
Just wondering if it ever goes away for good, or is it day by day challenges for the rest of one's life??????????????????
Well after reading these posts, I find I have little memory of them at all. I can say that I have found out that part of the problem is DID, I find that to be a missed diagnosis because from what I have read they say we have an inner world and I have never seen an inter-world I do remember the day I first experienced .ting from myself and rising above my body in mid-air looking down at my self as I laid there. No pains, no feelings just hoovering above myself looking down at what was happening to my body. I was 4 years old then. I had gotten pretty good at this.
I spoke about this to a therapist later and I was thrown in a Pyshchactic ward and drugged up till I could not function. When I got out I never told a sole that I could do that again till a few years ago. It took a year almost for her to come to her conclusion. Still, I feel as lost as a bestie bug, no direction in what or how to work with this. Looking for a needle in a haystack. Lost and searching for the answers.
@scarletPear1945
I am sorry this is plaguing you.
I can’t say I can truly relate , but I have experienced similar things during a couple of traumatic events. As I was experiencing them in real time I also was watching myself from higher up. This happened when I was seemingly overwhelmed with the situation and I seemingly had a second self watching me helplessly ( the watching one had ideas but couldn’t get them across to the one experiencing the ordeal) . Our experiences are probably worlds apart but I have always attributed to my other issues flaring up amidst a new experience.
Thinking of you ,,,