What happened to me

Tw: child-on-child sexual assault

I was in 4th grade. I had been in a relationship with a boy in my class for a while. It started small. He'd say little things I wasn't comfortable with, brief touches, and then one day - the last day of 4th grade - it spiraled out of control. It was dark. The class was watching Cars. We were in the back. I dont remember a lot. I remember him touching me and making me touch him. I thought if I said no, the teacher would get mad and my classmates would laugh at me. Or, he would tell everyone what he did and that I wanted it. School let out. I went home and told my mom. She said it was normal. I should have done x, y, and z. She said I had to see him again the next day to break up with him. We went to nashville shores. He made me kiss him more and sit in his lap. I told him that I was breaking up with him and I dont remember how he reacted. I just remember acting like everything was fine on the way home. No one cared. I feel kinda isolated from other survivors because I think that it's pretty rare for another child to be the perpetrator. I haven't met any others like me.