Why I will always feel disgusting
There are many reasons/ways I feel disgusting but two that have been consuming me lately are
1. There is/was so much documented photo/video of was lot of my abuse that I know has to be online for countless, infinite, evil, perverted people to relive my abuse over and over and over. It is physically impossible to get any/all I that material off the web so I know no matter what I will always be a damaged gross used up thing
2. My nightmares and flashbacks make certain details so vivid and the one that haunts me the most is how absolutely happy and genuinely joyfull all these people were while in the act of abusing me and all while I was a lot of the time crying.i feel like that tainted me and I can never rid myself if that evil .
I don't think I'll ever not feel unimaginably gross
@Decentdood
Hi there. I am so sorry that you were exploited on the internet. I can only imagine how hard this must be for you. It is so sad that this type of victimization happens but technology has come a long way some for the good and in other ways it is bad. There are now new laws being put in place to stop this from happening. Even lawsuits are now being made available for victims. Although hard you must try to rise above it and you are not disgusting. We all have things that we are not proud of in our lives. time has a way of calming stuff down. You may be able to contact the social media company and ask to have it removed, or have someone with authority to request it be removed.
I know it hurts now but I do hope you will begin to move to pass this event and hold your head up and press on.🙏
