mom TW CHILD ABUSE

my mom isn't stable, my friend thinks she's a narcissist but I'm confused.

shes trying, but I don't think she is, she keeps progressively getting worse, and worse.

she hits me, verbally abuses me, and gaslight me

I learned not to express my emotions around her, she can't handle me if I'm sad, she's too tired for me if I'm angry, she wants to know why I'm happy, and it just makes me tired.

and one day, she asked me a question "do you love me?" I didn't love her, she never gave me a reason to, so I responded with "yes...?" and I don't know how to put it kindly, so I'll put it bluntly

she tried to kill me, and she realized her mistake but I got a scar in the end

a policeman saw us fighting but he didn't do anything about it.

I'm tired.