thanks mom and dad

my trauma comes from divorce and it’s starting to affect my relationship so i want to do whatever i can to not let it control me anymore. i’m about to turn 20 this month and my parents separated when i was about 9. even before my parents really started talking and eventually yelling about divorce they were never loving or affectionate with each other. i only ever remember them hugging once and that’s about it. over time my parents started to get more and more confrontational about separating. telling my mom about my dad’s dirty magazines and his match.com profile that i stumbled across while playing in his office only added more fuel to the fire. right before they finally separated my parents would constantly have screaming matches and one they had right before taking me to school lead to me bursting into tears during class and sobbing to my teachers in the hallway about my home problems. once my parents divorced and my dad moved out i thought everything was okay. but now i’m in a serious relationship and the trauma is affecting how i think/react/see myself in my relationship. i’m trying really hard for my boyfriend and i to get better but it’s really difficult