Groomed and abused TW

This happened when I was 11, I met a 16 year old named “m” and I immediately was attracted to him, his confidence, his ego and his looks. Just a side note I had really bad daddy issues at the time so when he and I started talking, he acted like a father to me, looked out for me, took care of me and taught me important life lessons.

At least that’s what I thought, slowly our “friendship” became more of a grooming/abusive one. He started getting angry drunk and texting me in the middle of the night yelling at me, name calling me, patronizing me and scaring me, I was only 11.

soon enough he started making sexual advances on me, making me call him “daddy” not allowing me to talk to other boys without his permission. Said he’d date me soon enough if the rest of the girls he was talking to rejected him. He started threatening me not to talk to any guys because I was “his”

soon enough he started showing me pictures of other girls to make jealous or angry, he played toxic mind games with me and so much more.

soon enough, he started saying stuff like how he wished I was his age and that he’d 100% date me right away if I was. He started flirting with me, making advances and slowly he was starting to talk and treat me more sexually, telling me about his sex life and more. I was 11.

a few months passed I cut contact with him I am now 12 and he’s about to turn 17 in a few months, I heard he got a girlfriend so when I talked to him lastly confronting him about everything he did to me he once again turned up advances knowing he had a girlfriend, asking for my snap where he strictly talks to girls on there for dates, asking me about the boys in my life and begging to keep in contact.

when I said no and scolded him for his actions he got his girlfriend to yell at me for being “rude” to him and I’m not kidding when I tell you he started calling me “kid” and “child” in front of her. I desperately tried to tell his girlfriend what was happening, but she didn’t listen, she said I was faking it and was just being an immature child.

there the name calling didn’t stop, he especially name called me, insulted and gaslighted the hell out of me those days. I left in a note of him being the cruelest he’s ever been. Manipulations, gaslighting, name callings, belittling, lying and denying and so much more.

its been 2 years since the incident and I’m still dealing with a lot of trauma and addictions, I’ve tried therapy but it wasn’t the best experience if I’m going to be honest. I was sexualized and groomed as an 11 year old little girl when he was drinking and considering himself an “adult”.

I’ve been though a lot of ptsd flashbacks, nightmares, addictions even as far as Romanticizing him and turning mu sexual advances based off him, I’m not kidding when I saw him stalking my social medias and me in general I started shaving as if I was expecting him to do something to me sexually. As far as I know I started doing it to myself like he used to talk and tell me about.