Guilt that I can't let go off (trigger warning)
I was born into a bad group of adults I was not the only one who being abused 3 years ago me and a few others were rescued. I had to move country for safety. I'm still battling with my own health issues they caused and I am very scared. But I know this is still happening innocent children are ring hurt. I'm to much of a coward to go back and help. I know I won't be alive very long if I do. But still the guilt of knowing and not being able to help is also killing me. I don't know what to do
@Tinywhisper11 I'm sorry you went through the things you did and I'm grateful you were rescued. You're not a coward. You know what would happen if you went back and it's understandable that you're scared. Is there anyway you can get in touch with authorities where this took place? That you could pass on information to people who would be in a better position to help?
@mytwistedsoul the authorities know it was a undercover police thing that saved me. Unfortunately this cult has a lot of power. I'm not allowed to say to much of them in being protected. But thanks for your kind words ❤
@Tinywhisper11 You're welcome. I can understand why you shouldn't say too much. I hope that maybe it can ease your mind and hopefully alittle of the guilt you feel knowing that the police are aware of what's going on. Try to be gentle with your thoughts though ok? ❤️ They probably have to move very carefully with so much at stake
@Tinywhisper11
Thanks for sharing. I'm sure it's not easy. Forgive yourself. After all, you're the victim. What you can do, when you're ready, is write it all up like write a story or a book. Not for anyone to see, just for yourself. It's called journaling. then later you can decide what to do with that. You can chose to burn it or such to give you a closure.
@LostTurtle22 my therapist said I should do that ❤ maybe I will
@Tinywhisper11I
I would not say that you are a coward, rather, it sounds you are staying away so you can protect yourself from what sounds like a very dangerous situation. I also don't think you have anything to be ashamed of, as you did nothing wrong. What they did to you and others is wrong. As for that undercover officer, it sounds like they probably know what they are doing and will do what they can to shut down the ring.
@Summershy thankyou ❤ for your kind words ❤ I hope your right I hope they will be able to help the others ❤ I wish no-one had to suffer because of anyone else
@Tinywhisper11
Dear Tiny, you did absolutely nothing wrong. You were an innocent child.
Protecting yourself and finding safety is perfectly normal response.
Put yourself first heal and be well. Take the time you deserve to build self esteem and create safe boundaries. In my experience boundaries are so important to your personal safety. I have been victimized because my boundaries were never developed when I was young. Your therapist can teach you.
The authorities will do their job to help others in the group that hurt you , after all they saved you. They are aware thankfully. Your doing a good job so far learning. Keep up the good work!
ABB 💜
@amiableBlackberry92 thanks for your kind words ❤ I'm sorry people hurt you to. ❤ I'm trying very hard everyday to get stronger and better Thank you ❤
@Tinywhisper11 You popped into my thoughts the other day so I thought I would check in and see how you're doing :)
@mytwistedsoul aww hugs ❤ that's really sweet thankyou ❤ I'm doing ok you know what I might complain about my situation sometimes but in reality I have more than I could have ever hoped for. People have shown me such kindness the past few years, and I'm very grateful for everything I have. So I'm doing just fine ❤ thanks for checking in.. What about you are you doing ok?
@Tinywhisper11 *hugs* ❤️ You're welcome 😊 I'm glad you're doing ok. It's ok to complain or vent - its good to get it out
I have to admit I admire your positivity. That despite all you've been through you have so much you're grateful for. That's a beautiful quality and says so much about you ❤️
I have a habit of going around and checking on people here lol - I try not to be annoying about it 😋
I'm getting over being sick tbh - its slow going but I'm doing better. Thank you for asking ❤️
@mytwistedsoul aww gives you a big healing hug ❤ I hope you get well soon ❤ I think it's sweet you care enough to check up on people thankyou ❤
@Tinywhisper11 Thank you ❤️ 😊