Lack of will

@Greg1976 I am sorry you are feeling so depleted and frustrated that you hit a wall so to speak. When you feel this bad it helps to have a therapist you can talk to and possibly a psychiatrist that can help find meds that keep us in a more stable frame of mind. Lifestyle changes can help to like yoga, mindfulness, keeping on a high protein low carb diet if that is medically approved for us. Just having someone to reach out to. For many people that is this web site.

If you find yourself in crisis, these links may be helpful

https://www.7cupsoftea.com/forum/SelfHarmCommunity_65/SelfHarm_45/DistractionTechniques_16111/

suicide hotline: 1-800-273-8255

https://suicidestop.com/suicide_prevention_chat_usa.html

https://www.imalive.org/ https://www.crisischat.org/

https://www.suicide.org/ suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/ international-suicide-hotlines.html

https://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

https://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/Pages/home.aspx

If you can, please watch this video. It may benefit you:https://bit.ly/1O8hioR

Other things that can help are self help guides. https://www.7cups.com/supportGuides/selfHelpGuides.php

Certainly consider a 1-1 chat when you feel down. Just talking to somone can lift us.