flashbacks again....tired
Woke up again. Major flashbacks and nufgtmares. Having trouble settling down and going back to bed. It prob doesn't help that right now I have every light on in the house. Can't stop crying. So tired of this. I feel like I'm losing my mind.
It feels like you're losing your mind, but you're not. It part of a horrible consequence of the trauma that you experienced. Turning the lights on was a good choice for now it sounds like. Once you calm down, you can turn them off again. Or, you can choose to try to sleep with them on even.
Remember that what you are going through right now while horribly painful, is not nearly as painful as the original trauma. You will get through this, because you got through the original trauma. Hold on to that thought. I know it probably feels like it is forever right now - I've felt like that before. Hang in there. It can get better and once you identify some of the triggers and some coping skills, you'll find these don't last as long and get fewer and farther between.
Hold tight!
I know how you feel, I can't sleep without a sleeping pill... but my flashbacks turn into nightmares and then I can't always wake up from them. I wish I had some more constructive words to say, but atleast we'renot alone.
I hear ya Bam. It helps knowing other people are going thru it. Most people have no idea what it's like.
