Abused became the abuser
Please read all of this before being quick to judgement.
When I was around 6-7, a family member had taken me to their room. Light touching and looking took place. A few weeks, or months, later it became a little more, but still only touching. I was undiagnosed ASD at the time, and very easily led. I was never told what we were doing was wrong, just that it was mine and his game, but being a child, I wanted to play this game with others. So from 7-9, me and my other female cousin would “play” this “game”. I’m now in overwhelming guilt and cannot believe the damage I must have caused her. She speaks to me like she doesn’t remember a thing, but I know she must do. I don’t know how to bring this up to her so we can both heal. I want her to know that I didn’t do this to malicious. I was a kid, I didn’t know what I was doing. Neither of us did. I don’t know what to do. I’m having panic attacks nearly every day. I don’t know how much longer I can live with this and I don’t want my family to hate me even though I know I deserve them hating me.
@lilacparker
I understand you , but just cause you remember it dosent mean she remember it too and if it was not important for her she would have not remembered it , i recommend dont make her remember i will make you look stupid , then she didnt hit even puberty so its better that it is forgotten but if you want to do it first discuss it with your parents then take any action.