Child on child sexual abuse
I' ve recently discovered that i was sexually abused in childhood. Something i had repressed, denied and belittled for years and years. This effected my life in so many ways and when it surfaced and i realised just how serious the whole thing was i was overwhelmed, i had pstd, nervouse break down, but somehow in all the chaos everything about me made sense finally.
Im ashamed, selfblaming, disgusted, sad, angry, my sex life is hard and the list goes on and on.
The abuser was another child, several actually, and this i have such a hard time swallowing... Like im not rightfully a victim, survivor. Like i was some kind of a perverted and a disgusting baby. I would like to talk to other people out there who have similar stories.
I want to hear that im not alone, and that this was horrible sexual abuse, molestation and not at all my fault.
Thank you very much for reading and please contact me, i want confirmation or something..
@hopetohope8
Hey there. I echo what @agreeablekite4304 put so well. You're not alone, you're not to blame, you're not disgusting. But I can understand where those thoughts may come in as you process these memories. Doesn't make them right though.
Shame is an insidious thought process, because it encourages silence, isolation, and bottling up toxic emotions. I've said this before to people, but it's often those feelings you least want to share that you most need to talk about. Please continue to reach out - in doing so you help yourself by ridding yourself of that burden, but you also enable others to see they're not alone, and they have nothing to be ashamed of either.
You are not alone and your feelings are valid. 
Thanks everybody that have commented on my little post. It helped me reading your answers, its kind of liberating because í felt so alone and so different like i was from the outside trying to connect but there was something in the way.
Im dealing with an open wound now and some things are hard and feel like salt and then you avoid those things but i have hope that the wound will one day close and i will be able to deal with things better, regarding this matter, though it will remain a scar, a part of me that ill learn to live with :) !
Best wishes to all
