I am alone with everything in my head
I am a child of the biggest sex ring in london, i have been passed from circle to circle my entire life. Until six years ago i didn't have any friends or family and no love choices or relationship experiences. I would like to get my problem off of my chest here as it's been hurting me for a while, you don't have to read, this is just so i don't crack up again..
I have had a friend for six years, we've discussed being in a relationship but i wasn't ready, recently i've been feeling like i have been ready to date someone, so a few weeks ago i was getting ready to tell him i would like to date him but it turns out he'd been dating a good friend of mine for a day already, didn't even consult me about it and had only known my friend for a week. They're still dating and will constantly tell me about their relationship. I am in a constant state of suicidal depression but i will not kill myself because it would hurt him too much, he doesn't need me around but he thinks he does, so for now i suppose i will just have deal with it or risk making him unhappy. I don't want that at all. Thankyou for listening.
Can I say something.... First don't hurt yourself. Secondly I really think you should tell him how you feel. And your friend also. She should understand.
I am so sorry that this is happening to you. I wish I could offer more, but I am thinking of you. You are worth waiting for. Someone will see that.
Hey Hun, I am right here for you. I am so sorry what you had to go though, I know it must be tough. :( But can I tell you how strong you really are!! You are admirable, and I couldn't be prouder, I'm new to this app, so I don't know how this messaging thing works, but if you would like to message me, feel free! Xx Abby 💞
First of all you are not alone. I really appreciate that you posted your thoughts here. I want you to know that you can get through this even if your past is hard, the future is so bright. Right now you may be going through a tough time but I think you should talk to your friend about it. You are loved and you will be missed. Every life is precious including yours and each person has there struggles but I believe if you can get though it, it will make you stronger. I know love is a trival and hard thing but communication is key even with friends. I hope things get better. I'm here for you.
Here i am. Im back. Ive gone through the mill and come back around. Tried to start a business but fell back when my money was cut. I do terrible things for money now. My life is going nowhere. And here I am. Ive had a stroke and liver damage. I'm only 24. I live on rice and pasta. My arm was broken the other day, so I lose money on that until it's healed. Thanks for every ones nice words, but it doesn't mean anything anymore. Just like every one else I'm stuck and nobody can help. Thanks you
