Idk how I’m feeling..

I was SA two days after my 19th birthday at my place of work by what was one of my managers. That was almost 4 years ago it was a lot police were involved I had to go to court the whole deal. I worked through it I attended therapy to help with the overwhelming feelings of anxiety every time I worked with a male coworker. I guess I don’t know how I’m feeling because I was SA again yesterday by one of my best friends sister. She was very intoxicated and she took my nice gesture of trying to take her and her child home (I was babysitting) so she doesn’t have to drive as me wanting to do things with her. I told her no several times she was making several advances on me grabbing me inappropriately asking me if I want to go inside with her, kissing me inappropriately. She then forced a pill down my throat while I was holding her child to get them inside (I later found out it was the equivalent to a Xanax). After that I shoved her kid in her arms and I ran all the way back to my friends house crying and shaking. That was on Friday I’ve felt weird all day and I’m having a very very VERY hard time with coping and feeling all of my emotions. Idk what to do.