Last night..

Last night I went to a my friend bachelorette party and we had hired a stripper. I got it for her because that's what she asked for although I wanted nothing to do with it. I understand it's just to be for fun but it made me really uncomfortable and I dont know what to do.. He grabbed me in places I didnt want to be touched.. he grabbed my chest and tried to touch me down there. I pushed him away. He grabbed my hand and put it on his junk and I pulled away. I'm getting anxiety talking about it now, because its reminding me of when I was assaulted before. On top of that he told me he wanted rape my a**. I feel disgusting and ashamed, I wish my hands were gone because I can't scrub them clean. It's making me sick. I'm afraid of losing my boyfriend too if I tell him.. or that hell get pissed and try to fight this person. I dont know what to do..