My "uncle" Trigger warning, please take care!

When I was younger my uncle molested me and my sister. It happened to me twice, and the second time my sister was there. We were sleeping in the tent and he woke me up, I told him to get off me so he moved over to my sister (who was sleeping at the time). I was screaming at him and he ran out telling me to be quiet. I also get flashbacks (but it feels like a dream- almost not real?) of being in there basement spare room, and feeling scared when he tickled me. It makes me so sad that my parents gave me the best childhood I could have had and I can hardly remember it cause I've repressed so many of my memories. The most frustrating part is not remembering what happened to me. But at the same time I wonder if it would make it more painful if I knew something else happened. I hide my sadness throughout Highschool and for a few years after. When I started working I couldn't handle the stress, I wasn't sleeping, my body hurt(no matter what) and I got diagnosed with fibromylagia.My family did find out about my "uncle", and my grandpa still talks to him which makes me SO mad. He tried blaming me saying I shouldn't have put my legs up on him? I've NEVER felt like it was my fault, which I guess is good but my grandpa talking to him still makes me so mad! I have all these problems which are linked to HIM and my grandpa still talks to him. Idgi? I don't hate anyone but I do hate him.