Really afraid of my father
Pretty sure he sexually abused me and raped a few women in the process. Hard to get over that. I'm a pretty sensitive, caring male. I feel like people look at me funny. I've been scared for a long time. I have to ask him for money every month and he always wants to talk on the phone. He's a narcissist and he makes me vomit in my mouth when I think about what he's done to women.
Hey there! Thank you for sharing this. It was really strong of you to do. I am so sorry your father did that to you. It is very wrong. I want you to know that you are not alone and there are people (like me) who are here for you! 
So sorry to hear of what you have been through @Kelleyd. And its too be expected that you would feel scared and uncertain... abuse affects us like this When you were young you didn't have any control over how you were treated but now as an adult you have more control and can decide how you are going to relate to your father.. in your monthly phone calls.. but remembering that the patterns you leant growing up will be affecting you. To be around a narcissist isn't easy. Have you thought about seeing a counselor or reading about narcissism, so that you are more equipped to deal with this. Really affirm you as a sensitive and caring male, and hope that you find a way through.. We are here for you in support.