Scared of what could happen
I was raped when I was a child and now that I have children of my own I am so scared that someone will get to them and I will have failed at protecting my babies. This keeps me up at night and I cry so much over this. I can't ever let anyone get close to me because I'm scared that I will let in the wrong person and that wrong person might be a peadophile. I am a single mother and I have absolutely no friends at all and because I don't want to let anyone get close to my children, I don't make new friends or go on dates because I already know I can never bring anyone new around my kids so I just don't bother. I get really lonely though! When I'm lonely these thoughts and fears come up and that's when I cry like a little baby. Just quietly in bed by myself with absolutely no one to lean on. I'm struggling! 😭
First off, thanks for sharing. I could relate to your story so much. I am a single mother of a girl and have also been abused as a child. I have major trust issues and trauma as a result and that’s why I can’t put her in daycare or even leave her with anyone. It’s so hard because we want to protect our kids at all times but we can’t always. I too don’t have friends and I’m scared to meet someone new. My advice is to never bring your kids around anyone you’ve just met. Wait atleast a year till you know them a bit. Also, you could share your feelings to any friends you make or family. I get lonely too but I have hope I will meet someone that will love and respect me and my child and not harm us. God bless you !
i highly recommend teaching your kids self defense, take then to MMA classes. That will make em tougher and less likely to get abused. Sending you lots of love ❤️