Sexual assault healing support
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Almost a year ago I was sexually assaulted by a acquaintance a friend of a friend type of dynamic at a party. He drove me off site of the party and proceeded to sexually assault me. I was 19 and he was 37, I was a virgin when I was assaulted so that really bothers me because it was taken from me I try to forget about it and act like that wasn’t who took my virginity because truly it wasn’t because that wasn’t what I wanted but it isn’t about the virginity thing it’s more so about having a hard time coping with the entire situation because I feel so dirty and like my body hasn’t been mine since. About 3 months after this happened I started to date my friend and after dating for around 6 months we lived together for a little bit and he never knew the situation that had happened and he forced me into having sex when I had said no multiple times and it just bothered me so much because not only was it someone I trusted it also flashed me back immediately and he got so angry that I was upset it was just very hard to cope with. Thankfully he is my ex now. I would just like to know what I can do to actually start healing and reclaiming my body back as my own. Thank you
@reservedMango99917
Hi, you got a really terrible story! But at least your "friend" is your ex now. I know that you are trying to forget about everything he did to you and make your body feels like your's again, but the more you try to forget it, your mind will let you remember it clearer. So the next time when you think about that, just be like "ok, that's a bad memory for me, but i won't be able to change it, so i'm just gonna think about it and then let it pass". It might not be the best idea for you, but i hope you could "find" you original body again and forget about him. Hope you have a nice day, thanks.
