always feel my experience with sexual trauma is never enough

i posted on reddit about my sexual experience and my feelings were invalidated bcuz i guess i was being dramatic.

i feel like i cant talk to anyone about this. i feel so lonely. i feel like i always have to analyse my experience like a scene in a play and say it all matter of factly other than the truth - that i was so so scared. it wasnt my fault even tho i like to say it is so it makes it seem better.

i cant tell my parents or my sister. i only have my boyfriend and my other friends but i cant go into it with them for fear of ruining and burdening them.

before quaratine, i contacted for free therapy and now i dont know when i will be able to talk about this. i currently have no money to even pay therapy. i just dont know what to do. do i speak to my dad about this? would he ask questions about it? i dont want to talk about it with him, i just dont want to talk about it with him. please dont make me talk about it with him. please don't make me talk about it with him. please

does anyone feel the same?