i don't know what happened to me
I wasn't molested or anything, tho there were awkward attempts of hand holding and hugging and forehead kisses, but i think i was groomed. at least psychologically. i was manipulated into that relationship by my teacher (a teacher in training or a student-teacher) who has now his license and is teaching people now... i was vulnerable and he apparently created a false safe place of security and false love... idk i was too dumb and a fool. i was 13 and two years had passed and i still can't get over it. rather, it had only sink in to me that i think i was groomed. idk i just need validation of what really happened to me. he was 7-10 years older than me. idk send help. i also think my friends don't fully believe that im suffering from what happened. i can't tell my family bcos,,, typical asian filipino household where we're somewhat close-minded when it comes to mental health and stuff like these... i don't really know what happened to me was even valid or not. i don't know.
@eunnikoh
Hi !
What matters is how you felt then, how you feel now, and how it affects you.
It would be great if you can get an interview with the school psychologist or any other mental health professional.
It seems that you felt molested, that your boundaries were crossed without your consent, that there was some element of aggression in that behavior, that It made you feel vulnerable and shameful.
And it touched something sensitive inside you that hurts until this day.
I hope you can get some professional support, and also that you continue participating in this Community, posting the thoughts and feelings you want to share, as they come to your mind.
That will surely help much.
I wish you all the best !
Marcelo
thank you so much for replying, it means a lot to me :((
@eunnikoh
You are welcome !
Marcelo
What happened to you is appalling. You have all the right to be bothered by it. The relationship your teacher reeled you in to is totally inappropriate. On top of that, he attempted to do things that made you feel uncomfortable. That's not ok. Keep this in mind: IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT. You were just a child, you still are, and your teacher was in a position of authority. You trusted him & yet he betrayed you. IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT. I do understand the difficulties of growing up in a place where most people,even parents, disregard MH issues. That's precisely why I'm here as well. It's a good thing you found this app & share your story. If you don't already, you may also want to check out Anne Carly on IG. She's a Filipina artist based in Toronto who talks about her struggles growing up in a Filipino household. I'm just one of her avid followers & in no way affiliated with her but I do find her words validating & relatable. I wish I could be of more help but I'm still dealing with my own issues & a lot of built-up resentments dating back from when I was younger than you are. I hope we both could figure out how to process our emotions & develop healthy coping mechanisms to face life challenges.
it feels nice to be in a support group like this, which is very new, so i really want to say thank you. it means so much to me. i hope we can learn how to recover from this :((.
We will heal. In due time. I'm glad you found a safe place you could reach out to. All the best to our journey.