Why he?

A good friend of mine died in february.... 4 days before my birthday.

I found it out and didn't really understand it at first... i didn't think it was true.

I...i asked myself why he had to die....i'm glad that my teatcher let me go home that day...

I asked my parents, they said that he didn't feel any pain at all....he just *lights go off* and he was gone....

The next days where pretty rough. I wanted to quit everything included my bd.

My parents said that i have to enjoy my bd, because ...i mean it's my birthday....

At the 18th of february 2021 i got the chance to see him one last time....

I watched him as he laid there, in his coffin...with his most beatiful suit on....i couldn't hold my tears anymore... i just sat there and watched him...while my dad changed the flowers.... (my parents where the ones who buried him, they're undertakers, )

Now, almost a whole year later, i still don't understand why it had to be him.....

But...

Everything happens for a reason...right?

I know that not everyone is going to read that whole book through :) haha and i don't really care ..... now i finally talked it out.

Ps: english isn't my mother tongue.....and it isn't perfect....