Hii
Hello, I'm Olivia, Am 14 I'm a work in progress, I don't know what am supposed to write here,but I have Social awkwardness (hello, awkward silences)
Anxiety (it's like, always)
Survivor of sexual abuse (healing, not defining)
Living with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)
I'm learning to embrace my quirks, confront my demons, and rise
Welcome to my world
I'm a deeply sensitive and emotional person,yes I cry alot am a rollercoaster of emotions been living life with a heart that feels intensely,words have power over me, sometimes they control me.
Surviving traumas and tough experiences has been my reality some days, I wonder if I'm still surviving...
But apart from that
-Drawing: pencils and paper are my happy haven
- Cooking: whipping up new recipes brings me joy
- Basketball: keeping active, even if I'm not a pro
- Music: my go-to escape for quieting a noisy mind
I just want people who won't judge me for all I've been through ☹️
What else am I supposed to write,I'm tired ...........
You sound EXACTLY like me, in so many ways… Wanna be friends?? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
Reallyyyyyyy *jumps up I excitement*
Sure, I'd love to be friends,I hardly get friends irl yk , people always judging before they get to know me and all .....
Thanks 😊
People are dumb XD
I’ll make a separate post for you and I <3
@Tinywhisper11, meet Olivia <3 Tiny is awesome, you’ll love her <3
@OliviaIsSad333 thanks for the tag kiara ❤ I want to be friends too ❤❤
@OliviaIsSad333 hi sweetie I'm Lola ❤❤ welcome to our cups family ❤ don't worry noones gonna judge you here, and if they do I'll run them down😈😈♿♿♿😂😂 sorry to hear about all your struggles🙁 but we will help you, this is a safe place here, you can be yourself. Gives you a giant tiny hug ❤ let me know if there's anything I can do for you ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
Thanks Tiny 🥺🥺,you seem like a cool person can't wait to get to know you 😊
@OliviaIsSad333 ❤❤❤ hey sweetie, how are you settling in??
@Tinywhisper11
It's kind of okay tinyyy,I feel awful I kind of freaked out when I was talking to someone in Sr, and everyone just kept on leaving or something and I felt awuful,so I ended up talking to an an empty Sr ,so I guess that's why am no longer that active,I might delete this account though in case I don't reply to any messages,I don't fit in (I feel so weird saying that to myself)
Ummmm,then I guess that's byeeeeeee,say bye to jesusredeemer awh I forgot her name I think it's kira or Kiara , okie it's definitely Kiara say byeee to her forme if you can.
Luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv youuuuuuuuuuu guys so much 🥺🥺
@OliviaIsSad333 yep kiara. @jesusredeemedme2425 ❤
chat group rooms can be hard to fit in to🙁 and people can be sensitive or take things the wrong way. That's a then problem not yours. Although I do know how upsetting it can be😥 maybe try a different room. You are loved here on the forums ❤ I love you ❤ don't delete your account yet, give it another try, you do for in and belong here as much as everyone else. Why don't you have a little look at the icebreakers/games forums ❤❤ hugs you tightly ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
*Hugs tinyyyyyyyyyy* sure I'll give it another try and maybe just stick to forums and listeners ❤️
@Tinywhisper11 Well, some of us are devils, but we use our pitchforks constructively. 😹💯 Particularly eating ceaser salads and oh, torturing the dam.ned. 😹💯 Perhaps not judgement free, but we don't jump to conclusions without mindful evaluation. I have a feeling you've learned some sick tricks in that chair. Balance on one wheel. Ok I'll stop. 😹 Hope you're well. ❤
@competentTruth3079 😂😂😂😈😂😂😂😂😂 yes I've learnt a few😁 I can do this...
@Tinywhisper11 With that spin you're either ready to take flight, or drill to the center of the earth. 😹😹😹💯 Devilish indeed. Appreciate your spirit.
@competentTruth3079 ❤❤😁❤❤
@competentTruth3079
😱😱😱😱,you can't use pitchforks to eat salad's truthhhhhhhh, that's a nonononono 😝😝,we use pitchforks to fry means people smhh*eats popcorn*
Thanks for the nice words though 🥺
@OliviaIsSad333 Oh I've got pitchforks for every occasion, for frying, satte, marshmallow roasting. You can get them cheap at the devil's surplus. Second hand. 😹 "devil's surplus" 😹💯 Welcome! Hope sad Olivia can find her stability and contentment here. We're an assorted basket of nuts. Trail mix around here. Mileage may vary.
@competentTruth3079
I know where to go now,if I ever need to buy pitchforks 😅,
Me too I hope sad Olivia can become happy Olivia it's all in the process 😊
@OliviaIsSad333 For the kidz I take them to "Devil's R Us". Get them beezlebub plushies. 😹💯 It's hello kitty of the underworld.
I'm sorry you've traversed the dark hallways of life so young. Trauma has a way of shaping us into unrecognizable creatures, even to ourselves. Let the only judgement be of good choices for our healing, and bandaging of our wounds.
@competentTruth3079 I will buy 10 of those hello kitty plushies😂😂😂😂😂😂
@competentTruth3079
Lamooooo cool name *Devil are us* ,I don't think I wanna come to your shopp anymore 😭😭😭
@OliviaIsSad333 you can come to my shop instead😁 I'm selling parachutes, don't worry you can trust me... They come with a lifetime guarantee😁😁😁😁
@Tinywhisper11
Your shop sounds so much better tinyyyy, I'm gonna visit youuu sooonn and I'll take one parachute with no live insurance 😅
@OliviaIsSad333 😂😂😂😂😂 awwww ❤
You're so strong. Take love 💗
It might be difficult to talk about, but you can write about the challenges you've faced. This is something many people cannot achieve. You should be proud of yourself. I'm not an expert but from my own experience, I'd say that even when you're at your most desperate, it's important to keep the faith that in time it will all be over. You're here, you're safe.
I hope you never lose faith in recovery.
@Catunion
Thanks cat😊
@OliviaIsSad333 Welcome to the community, Olivia. Thank you for sharing about yourself so openly. It takes courage to be vulnerable, especially when you've been through difficult experiences.
Healing is a journey, and it's okay to take it one day at a time. If you ever need to talk or just want someone to listen, there are people here willing to lend an ear.
@Snor1ax
Thanks snor 😊
You're not alone. I'm deeply sensitive, too. Feels kinda like the world is made of briar bushes.
I'm learning to confront mine, too. I'm dx'ed BPD but my diagnosis is under dispute, so I try to be careful about that bit and sensitive to that.
Anxiety, like always, too.
Healing is bumpy. Gotta be kind to yourself.
Thanks for introducing yourself :)
You actually sound like a cool person to get to know. Embrace and own your individuality.
“ Don’t be ashamed of your story. It will inspire others.” -Author Unknown
@ShelteringTree7
I lost myself my Identity and my personality.
I interested in this Can you give more information about this - Embrace and own your individuality.
The quotation you share i like this, i can relate this quotation.
I have to share some thoughts
I have ashamed of me and my story my life. I think i am so boring unhappy isolated disconnected to other. i want to live so simple life i am so old fashion in this modern world.
My father says you are living the past everyone goes forword you moves backword or in past.
You can't do anything in lif cant acheive anything you dont have any thing , you nothing did in life you wasting time nothing will happen to you, you are not worthy, No one will marry you, if someone does then your wife will leave you.
But now i am accept my self with my life as it is with everything i don't want to prove someone in my life. I keep try doing what i need to do it.
If anybody want to leave me forever then its ok to me now i am not afraid to live alone. Now i am stronger than before. I am Facing struggling and challenging myself.
I learn lessons from many peoples like me so why not other people can learn and grow by my storie which can be a lesson.
Then i realised many peoples like me who have stuggling facing ups and downs, my story can be inspiring or lesson to themi have not to loss hope its not only for me it's for the humanity.
🙏
All the best to us 💐👍
I love drawing.
You sound like a lovely person! I like art too and have bpd but I'm a bit older, 22. :)
@OliviaIsSad333 welcome
you not alone in the feeling of not knowing what to say