Hopeless my behavior problems at college and at home
I have problems of being misbehaved with my mom, my sister and even tutoring. They did distract me while I was studying that I did not annoy them. They made annoy at me that they want me to do households and work a job. I don’t know the place of job that I don’t have a car. They are angry at me and wanted to be independent because I have bipolar and autism. My mom seems encouraged me to study and work at the same time, but she needs me to improve my behavior. The counselor is right that I have to ignore them, but I am not sure to trust my sister says that I want to be dead, make me feel stupid, and not being independent myself. As autistic, I feel very clumsy to do something, cannot interact with others, and feel aggressive toward other people call so many names at me. I just feel understand my mom seemed stressed ti take care of me over 30 years. Am I alone like this? My dream is to be freedom and stay in different countries, but I don’t like living in Kuwait because they don’t have any awareness for autism and bipolar. I just want to be myself. My mom, my sister and other people from high school called me as childish because I grew up watching cartoons and lord of the rings and watch mean girls and etc. I love watching those movies, but not remakes. I love watching Cruella the best Disney villain remake that is much better than Maleficient that makes me feel related to this character. My life sucks that I can’t be independent because of my mental illness. I will be taken by my cruel and wicked sister that she might have mental illness, but I don’t mean that. I just care about her even though I can’t interact with her because of autism. I feel damn socially awkward that I can’t communicate with my friends and family. I have friends from US and Kuwait at college because they have similar situations as I am. My really dream is to finish bachelor’s degree and I might continue to study master’s degree but I can’t study master because my IQ is average around 88 or 90. I also have repitive language disorder, but sadly there is no language and autistic therapist in Kuwait, but execpt the counselor from college in Kuwait that she supports me. I am evil like sea witch Ursula that I might dress up as her because she has more fun personality than Ariel. 😈 my mom and my sister also misunderstands and even me.
@Owlnight1993 I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling hopeless about your behavior problems at college and at home. It sounds like you're facing a lot of challenges, and it's understandable that you're feeling overwhelmed. You're not alone in feeling this way. Many people with bipolar disorder and autism struggle with interacting with others, and it can be difficult to balance studying and working. It's great that your mom is encouraging you to study and work, but it's also important to take care of your mental health.