Thought i Knew

when you wake up and realize you really knew nothing at all it becomes more than a parable it becomes your mantra. I thought I knew a lot of thigs even though I knew then I knew nothing at all I was sure of many things and I was wrong. it's hitting me very hard now especially after coming out of or at least trying to come out of grief, mourning, depression, and anger. At this point I know don't what to do or be anymore other than work and get money not even to win and buy things, really just to make sure I have a home and never sleep in my car again. I trust no one and the one person I'm supposed to trust is having secret pillow talks she calls venting to another man. I'm lost at what to do, how to feel, and if life is still worth it, not to harm myself but in terms of the overall goal, dreams and aspirations.