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User Profile: SkilledChatter
SkilledChatter August 6th

hi all, my life is really miserable and I wanted to know if anyone has any advice for  me.

i hope it doesn't matter just listing all over here:

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i live in an apartment
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and my city is big
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so my aparmtent friends i meet when goig down to play
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thats becoming rarer and rarer
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and shcool friends
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live far

cant msg or call
im an only child
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plus 3 of my 4 grandparents died
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all my cousins are way too old
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now they came here for college
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but now went back
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they were ncie
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especially my cousin brother
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and now
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all cousins of my age
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live in different states
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so im lonelky
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also iw as logged out of my yt account(by parents) and not allowed to play video games(except 1 hr each weekend which often gets cut)
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plus all these restrictions are ON TOP of their behaviour to me
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dont wnana get into details rn
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but it makes me rlly rlly sad
their is my parents fyi
i wanna go to a top college when i grow up, ike think MIT kinda
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So you are just supposed to be studying all time ?
yes
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and what makes it worse is their behaviour
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like occassioanl beatings(it was way more frequent till the age of 10), verbal abuse, calling me stuff like r* t* rd, autistic, not deserving of good behaviour,. ive not gone a day in the last year without being threatened(of all my bones being broken, of being k*lled, of being sent to hostel that ones almost daily). and apprently is all MY fauly
but their at tiems beahviour isn't acceptable
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also
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i hate when this happens
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imagine my mom screamed at me
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now
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at night
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she comes to my room
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and is like
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don't make a mountain out of a molehill
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and then
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next morning
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when im drowsy sleepy vulnerable
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and waking
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she comes and hugs me
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and im like(to myself) ok fine its fine
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next time i wont fall for it
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shes my mom after all
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no matter how bad the previous day's outburst was
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and i ahte it
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when i look back
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especially that
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i ahte it soo much
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this is what happened.....
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its so depressing
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2_cd93a9ae86b13c32HV8gBPusxQIuMAFXX3cZDeuFFGBWyIUNUAOSctlp7bM.pngbut their at tiems beahviour isn't acceptable 4:37 PM also 4:37 PM i hate when this happens 4:37 PM imagine my mom screamed at me 4:37 PM now 4:37 PM at night 4:37 PM she comes to my room 4:38 PM and is like 4:38 PM don't make a mountain out of a molehill 4:38 PM and then 4:38 PM next morning 4:38 PM when im drowsy sleepy vulnerable 4:38 PM and waking 4:38 PM she comes and hugs me 4:38 PM and im like(to myself) ok fine its fine 4:38 PM next time i wont fall for it 4:38 PM shes my mom after all 4:38 PM no matter how bad the previous day's outburst was 4:39 PM and i ahte it 4:39 PM when i look back 4:39 PM especially that 4:39 PM i ahte it soo much 4:53 PM this is what happened..... 4:53 PM its so depressing 4:53 PM
i always fall for it next time
and they aren't monsters they love me provide me alot. but behaviour sometimes is soo bad



so yeah pretty horrible.

also:


my dads a cardiac patient and yet still drinks a lot. so scared he'll get another heart attack btw


so makes it worse

and there's so much mroe dont wanna makethis too long tho. cupsing has helped.

today im sick i missed school prob will go tomorrrow.


.i was sick today, missed school. i saw a doctor and am better now

i got a cold. yesterday. so today went to see a doctor and went out and came back around the time i msged uthen a bit after reaching home i had to study. (altho i was s ick like bro WHAT??). and i wasn't able to(tho i told my mom). earned me a yelling for no reason. and then i mangaged to do my wrok somehow and wnt to sleep. feeling physically bad (due to sickness and cold) and mentally and wmotionally hoerrible(due to her words). rn i woke up feeling better. prob will go to school tomorrow. have school hw to do
so like after coming home 2 30. she wanted me to study. and eat snacks 3-4. i couldn't(i told her i wouldn't be able to sh didn't listen) . that's why i got angry. then finally 4:15 managed to complete and i slept at 440 feeling horrible


so yeah

i hope some1 readsthis to the end.

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User Profile: colorfulPanda8664
colorfulPanda8664 August 6th

@SkilledChatter

I read all of this. 🤍 I’m really sorry you’ve been dealing with so much, especially while feeling like you don’t really have anyone close by to lean on.

What stood out to me is how much you still care about your parents even while being hurt by some of the things they do. It says a lot about your heart that you can recognize they love you and provide for you, while also recognizing that some of their behavior is not okay.

You shouldn’t have to feel scared of being threatened or put down. Your feelings make sense. And honestly, the fact that you’re still trying to do well in school, think about your future, and reach out for support shows a lot of strength.

I’m glad 7Cups has been a place where you can let some of this out. You deserve to feel safe and supported. 💛

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SkilledChatter OP August 7th

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User Profile: colorfulPanda8664
colorfulPanda8664 August 6th

@SkilledChatter

I read all of this. 🤍 I’m really sorry you’ve been dealing with so much, especially while feeling like you don’t really have anyone close by to lean on.

What stood out to me is how much you still care about your parents even while being hurt by some of the things they do. It says a lot about your heart that you can recognize they love you and provide for you, while also recognizing that some of their behavior is not okay.

You shouldn’t have to feel scared of being threatened or put down. Your feelings make sense. And honestly, the fact that you’re still trying to do well in school, think about your future, and reach out for support shows a lot of strength.

I’m glad 7Cups has been a place where you can let some of this out. You deserve to feel safe and supported. 💛

6CgrxYsp.gif

User Profile: colorfulPanda8664
colorfulPanda8664 August 6th

@SkilledChatter

I read all of this. 🤍 I’m really sorry you’ve been dealing with so much, especially while feeling like you don’t really have anyone close by to lean on.

What stood out to me is how much you still care about your parents even while being hurt by some of the things they do. It says a lot about your heart that you can recognize they love you and provide for you, while also recognizing that some of their behavior is not okay.

You shouldn’t have to feel scared of being threatened or put down. Your feelings make sense. And honestly, the fact that you’re still trying to do well in school, think about your future, and reach out for support shows a lot of strength.

I’m glad 7Cups has been a place where you can let some of this out. You deserve to feel safe and supported. 💛

6CgrxYsp.gif