break up

hello everyone! I'm new here, it gets so bad that's why I'm here. thanks to chatgpt for recommending this app.

anyways, I just had a breakup 1 month ago. the first two weeks was *** (TW) it's not really easy. I almost lost myself in the process. as the day passes by, I noticed it gets lighter, I started laughing, enjoying my work, spending time with friends, spending time with myself without getting sad. but after a month, my ex messaged me. the first two weeks after a breakup, I keep chasing her, I keep asking her to talk to me, to explain it to me because I couldn't understand. it her a month to respond. I thought we're getting back together because she made me believed that we had a chance.

I asked her, do u want to comeback? just say yes or no. but she didn't respond to that question. she said she wants to but she keeps sending me mixed signals and confusion. there's always a "but" in her sentence, "but I don't want to hurt you again" I don't know she's so confusing and I don't know if she's playing me. it hurts so much because I feel like all my efforts were in vain. I feel like I'm back to zero again. I stopped asking her because it's clear to me that she doesn't want to.