i dont belong anywhere
no matter where I go, i dont belong there
i've never had any friends before even in pre school, i sat in the corner and waiting for my dad to pick me up while the other kids played with each other. I don't know anyone, and my family is evil i will never talk to them again
i have bad social anxiety(SA) and it has ruined my life, i was born with it and even though i tried everything i could never make any friends as people always reject me both in eprson and online, i am always unwanted and the most common thing for me to see is when someone starts to act like they dont want to be around me and they look around and then just walk away, becuase of that i hate being around other people, because i hate it once that happens
i dont even belong here, i mbanned from the social anxiety forum for no reason, the mods never talked to me it makes me so sad it was my favorite place to post and then mafiascum also banned me for no reason and i was trying to talk to someone in PMs and they banned me from sending PMs it makes me so mad. I want to post in the group chats but not hte listening circle because i feel like i dont belong there and i dont want everyone to just listen to me i dont like that much attention its the same reason i cant join the listener chats, becuase i cant do 1 on 1s. this forum is the only place i have to post i hope someone sees my posts and replies to it, i have no where to pos tall i have is this forum
@ahhlo
I am so sorry to hear that you had such a hard life...you can talk to me if you want...also sorry that you were not getting the support you needed
@ahhlo Hey :) I'm sorry you're having such a hard time here. That's not right - they shouldn't be able to ban you from the forums. If you're having trouble with mods you can report them. I know the sharing circle does have rules it follows and people can be alittle touchy if you break them. But if you're not being rude or unsupportive there shouldn't be any reason for them to just ban you
I hope things get better for you here
@ahhlo
hey - you belong here as much as everyone and anyone else.
I wanted to take a moment and say, i relate to what you were saying about not fitting in/not having friends/social anxiety and yes, even evil family.
I know what it is like to have a toxic and abusive family. what it is like to sit around waiting to get picked up instead of playing with others kids. when we go through a lot of stuff PLUS have to handle lots of social anxiety ( for me, that inner critic of mine is relentless and really keeps me away from being around others and oh god yes - the not wanting that look of rejection ...and not wanting all that attention ( bc what it they all just think something horrible about me or judge me or even the idea that maybe im not good enough to be listened to).
I am so sorry you have had so much rejection - its really hard to forget that and not worry it will always continue. I hope that you slowly start to reach out in little ways where you still feel safe ? ( And thats awful about the group chat and mods).
I started out here feeling very similar and feeling i didn't fit in or belong - and that was back in 2016 ( or ...before? im not sure). Making smaller steps to reach out - and when one place didnt feel safe, id try another. gets easier.
feel free to do posts like these in the daily check ins or in the communities that you have joined ....your voice matters and you deserve to be heard.
Hi,
I've never heard of someone having such bad SA as I do. I have literally no friends. I have a less than stellar family too. My SA is so bad that even in public places where people should be okay and normal, I fail. It also makes my face turn red and long story short it rolls down hill and builds until I feel like theres no point in trying anymore. I'm sorry that they banned you from certain things on here, that sucks. If you ever need anyone to talk to, let me know.
i HATE THIS WORLD SO MUCH
@ahhlo I wish I could share with you that I feel exactly the same. You’re not alone. I used to believe I hated the world. Now I know I just hate my country and its society. Maybe, you can move somewhere else and start a new life! Give it a try!
