Depressed Because of Living Situation
I came here because I had nowhere else to go but now I am starting to regret it. The worst part is I can't just leave because I have nowhere else to go. It's physically okay but mentally and emotionally abusive. The last time the verbal assault happened I just felt so beaten down.
I still haven't recovered from it completely. She let me stay for free and I am grateful but at the same time abuse is abuse and I need to get free. Some people think this is a good arrangement but they don't live here.
I am job hunting and desperately so. Time is running out and I still haven't secured a job. Depression is weighing on me. I am losing hope.
@navyDog5207
Hi navy.
Thank you for your writing. I hope things will be better for you. You can always talk to a listener 1:1. It might take some time before you find one who is good for you. You can also share at sharing circle, or just listen.
@navyDog5207
It's hard HAVING TO LIVE with someone that diminishes, berates and belittles you in any form or manner. I'm sorry you are in this situation but you can work your way through it. That's good you are looking for work. Keep at it and the best of results will happen.
@Hello navyDog5207,
I was trapped for 16 years in an intolerably abusive situation. I was always so embarrassed / ashamed by my situation. I wish I'd been able to connect - even if only through something like this - to know that I was not alone. I'm still uncomfortable disclosing the details except to say that I was mentally, emotionally and financially abused. It was not until after I managed to get out that I started watching you tube channels about covert narcissistic abuse. Educating myself about all the mind games and manipulations of my abuser was Tremendously validating and empowering. Your abuser may or may not be a narcissist but if you can, check out Doctor Ramani on you tube. My heart goes out to you and thank you for sharing like you did. Your story is the one I could relate to the most. Don't give up!