I feel angry when my parents won't accept who i am, and that they won't accept that i'm not going to be the perfect daughter they wanted.
when people treat me like shit, underestimate me, ignore me.
I am telling someone something personal and they say "oh, I understand." and it's like no you don't.
I feel most angry when the people in my group of family and friends belittle me and make me feel like they believe I am ignorant (lots of dumb blond jokes) for their own entertainment purposes.
I get yelled at.
Someone laugh at my way to be and when I can't get what I desire
When they misunderstand things.
I feel most angry,
specifically for this year due to the fact that my class is mixed with students with good grades like (only getting A-C) with us whom alway get the worst (always having G-D). Worst thing of all is that they mix us, taking ICT and Biology together in one class. In our school, students whom got at least B for their Math and Science were qualified to go for Bio while the ones with lower grades were automatically going for ICT. Not all of the good grades students were mean, but a few of them, they just piss me off. I know that they are intellegent compared to us but the way they act towards weaker students makes me mad.
Making 'tsk' sound when we ask questions. This happened to me yesterday when we learned a new chapter in Mathematics about Lines and Planes in 3D. I still didn't understand one of the subtopics though the teacher repeated more than twice and gave lots of example so I took the opportunity to ask the teacher in front of the class since it's better than being silent. Automatically I heard a loud 'tsk' sound from one of the 'intellegent' student and she started mocking me for God sake with a low toned voice. Urgh.
Another thing is that the same person pretty much likes the judge people without knowing what others have gone through. To sum things up, I go for extra class at night on Thursdays till Sundays usually from 6 to 9pm. I sacrificed my time to study this year and reduced my time to draw. It was hard to let go of a hobby I really enjoy at first but now I'm pretty much used to it and has succeeded to improve my grades.From the first exam this year. I had 5 failed subject and after sacrificing my time to study more and put effort, I've managed to pass more of my subjects and only having 2 failed subjects which is a yay. However, due to the fact that the person I'm talking about in school always say that /we/ whom have failed subjects, never even want to study makes me want to scream at a hill. oh my godness. Does she even know the improvement people make??
I wish that person would change her attitude. I've losted my respect for her ever since she did it these to us though she is a top student in class...
When I'm trying to get my mom to listen to what else I have to say but she starts yeling at me for the first thing I said.
When I don't feel enough.
Or when I start having negative thoughts. I start feeling angry at myself and taking it out on my husband. I get even more angry for being upset with him when he has don't nothing wrong. Then I get more bad thoughts in my head and then I just shut down and keep to myself.
