One thing I have never told anyone is....[finish this sentence}
Just... blurt it out! Don't be nervous! Make your secrets not so secret....
I hurt myself.
i'm sleeping with someone I don't love to forget the one who hurt me
@dxisychains please remember to love yourself
@dxisychains I'm sure you are lost and asking yourself why, why, me. I just want to have a simple and loving relationship with someone. But just hold on a bit and I'm sure someone will realize what a great person you are. There's always someone that will think "wow! you are amazing human being" even when you think no one will ever think or say that to you. Those that have wronged you in the past will surely regret of hurting you. Stay strong♡
One thing I've never told anyone is that I almost tried to kill myself by eating lots pills at once when I was 6. Thank God nothing happened to me. But I desperately want to die now by eating pills
@Sdolivera Please don't take a bunch of pills to die, there is so much to live for, yeah things suck at times but then they get better. Just have to find a way to do what you want that makes you happy
@creativeCar6208 thank you I appreciate it a lot
@Sdolivera No problem, sometimes life gets to that point but it just shows how strong we are
One thing I've never told anyone is that I'm scared of my parents, but I'm also scared of them thinking I'm a disappointment.
@TheLampPostLikesPie I have always felt like that, and it is a bad feeling. The time that made me feel great is when i showed up at his work his coworkers kept going on telling me how much he says he is proud of me. So even though you feel that way i am sure that there is little that you can do to make them not proud of you. The only time you would disappoint them is if you give up on everything. They love you and think the world of you.
@creativeCar6208 Thanks, but I've been trying to impress them for years to no avail.
@TheLampPostLikesPie That is never really a good situation, but if it comes down to impress them or do what makes you happy and what you need to do i would pick the latter.Impressing people is nice but losing your sanity isnt
I don't want to be in this world anymore as i feel like a worthless piece of shit
@yellowCity4232 You are not worthless, you have value. I can assure you that even though right now things are bad it will pass. There is so much that you can do and see and experience. I don't know why you feel this way but don't let anyone ever tell you that you are worthless.
@creativeCar6208 thank you so much for those words but in all honesty how do you no i am not worthless? I might be and have been told many times by many different people that i am so i believe that - i may be nieve but i no that after so many people say that there must be a certain realness to that aspect.
@yellowCity4232 You shouldn't let others opinions convince you of something that is not true. I could go get a bunch of stoners that would tell me that the sky is green but just because I would have heard it many times doesn't mean that I can't look up and believe that the sky is blue. If people are saying it over and over clearly none of them had ever taken the chance to get to know you and see how meaningful you are
@creativeCar6208 thats the most positive things i've heard in a while! But no offence to what you've said - but if one of your best friends says it to you multiple times you start to believe it after a while.
@yellowCity4232 If my best friend kept putting me down like that making me feel horrible, I don't know if i would consider them my friend. I'm not trying to look in a dark way but friends don't constantly put aonther down. Maybe you can talk to your friend about it, they might understand
@creativeCar6208 thats my friendships though, they work in different ways, we are all really close to each other but we don't do compliments or crap like that - we simply take the piss out of each other. Its good though cause none of us are good at giving or recieving compliments anyway.
One thing I have never told anyone is that until this month I have only met my mother approximately two times. I have spent all my life living with a father who told me she wanted nothing to do with me. Living with her now is challenging, but she seems sweet and doesn't want to hurt me. :) there's a silver lining in everything.
One thing that i find really hard to people is what i struggle with daily. I am a person that struggles with depression, an eating disorder, body dysmorphic disorder, and anxiety. I'm afraid that if people find out they will treat me differently. This is part of the reason that i rarely go grab food with others for lunch when i am occasionally at the office. I like to have a general idea of where we would go out to eat so i would know what i would be comfortable ordering.
When my parents got divorced and my mother told me I ran up to my room crying.... I laid their with my dog lucky and just cried into his fur... I did that every night for weeks...then when my father sold my dogs I felt more alone than before....I contemplated cutting to make myself feel better until my best friend and sister for life began to call me everyday and we would just talk for hours...eventually I didn't have those feelings...she helped save me from going down a really dark path... Eventually I just cried to myself at night less and less....
That i cant do group work. If I fall,I fall alone,if I win it's all me.
I have been bullied in elementary school and it's the reason for my social trauma. I never told anyone not even my parents of what happened because I know it's my fault. I'm afraid to tell people I'm depressed or have anxiety issues because whenever I tried to hint they just pass it off as "you shouldn't think so negatively."