One thing I have never told anyone is....[finish this sentence}
Just... blurt it out! Don't be nervous! Make your secrets not so secret....
I have kept my mental health issues to myself, i don't have anyone i can really share this with, my spouse is not a great support, so I just keep this all to myself. I've tried to talk to a therapist but i can't afford the money they want so it leaves me out on my own. If I was an alcoholic or a drug addict there are tons of groups you can go to get help but when it comes to mental health there is nothing so you are left to deal with it on your own. It makes for your own private hell.
that I am a monster. I had done terrible things before, and I am now suffering because of these...
One thing I have never told anyone is...
I fall in love really easily, and suddenly, and I can't stop it. But then I'm happy and thinking about the guy and my mind starts feeding me these thoughts like: He's too old. He lives too far away(he really only lives like 2 hours away) He isn't interested. He likes my sister. It would never work. I'm too clingy. They don't like me hanging out with them.
So, I get happy, but then, my mind puts me down, almost immediately.
And for some reason they all have the same "base"
Short Brown Hair
Brown eyes
Funny
Around 3-5 years older than me
I am deathly afraid of ending up alone in life, yet I also think I am worthless and annoying. My friends think I am always happy and bouncy, but I only act that way to hide how utterly sad and awe full I feel.
@HarrietLouise
I understand. I am in the same place as you.
I truly believe that I am not good enough for anyone. It seems like after me, all of my exes have found a significant other and proceeded to marry them. I truly don't think that I will ever be happy.
@creativeCar6208
You will be happy. It just means those people were not right for you. When you find that person, you will forget about all this and wonder why you worried in the first place. You dodged a lot of bullets and will get an amazing prize.
I like older women
@SoHopeless
I'd like to share a secret bit don't feel ready yet.
@lazyKatz
Its ok, its your secret so ask yourself this:
Will telling this secret be betraying yourself?
Or
Will keeping this secret be betraying yourself.
Be true to you : >)
@SoHopeless
Im pretty sure it wouldn't be betraying anyone else , it's so long ago. I think I'd cause more damage to myself and what I've build up over the years.
@lazyKatz
I understand. We all have things we feel better keeping to ourselves. But i think we worry to much and possibly we are the only ones that have to learn to be ok with that stuff.
@SoHopeless
I'm sure your right but when I atempted to spare it with others had l been drinking. I stopped myself because it's so easy to mention things you later regret.
@lazyKatz
I know thats right lol
Ive told on myself many times and it came back to bite me on the as$
@SoHopeless
Sorry about your as- .......
. Has it taught to to think twice before speaking?
@lazyKatz
Yes it does, but my lips move fast than my brain still sometimes. Im very open and i dont consider how bad people love to find ways to use your own words against you. Very rude people amongst us all
@SoHopeless
Sounds like you'll have to get some heavy duty underwear! 
@lazyKatz
Ive gotta protect my ars😄
@SoHopeless
Stop those tasty bites When your tongue goes into over drive.
@lazyKatz
Last night Ididnt watch I'm a celebrity get me out of here. It's replayed , just starting now.......Time out so I can catch up.
@lazyKatz
Ok, enjoy 😉
@SoHopeless Me too
i feel like my relationship is me relying on him for everything and im too anxious to talk to him 24/7 and i dont know how to get out of it.
I'm scared of many things.
I have strong feelings for someone other than my husband and I feel terrible about it.
@RewriteMyStars
Just distance yourself from them. It will take time but it happens and remember that other person has a lot of bad qualities that you just haven't discovered yet. It takes time to see the bad qualities of people sometimes. Nothing to feel guilty about as it happens in most relationships. Just have confidence in the fact you acknowledge your feelings and choose to not act on it. Now that is an amazing person. This is the test of those marriage vows.
@Laura I am a masochist and I like making myself suffer emotionally and physically
@disasterismysecondname Are you safe?
