One thing on my mind right now is......

How in the heck am I still awake? I need to do this that and the other. Should be going to bed. Scattered right now.

I need to go grab my sheets so I can make my bed and shower, but I don't wanna get up, and furthermore I will once more feel guilty for showering even though it isn't that late at all because everyone is sleeping. I know that everyone in my family sleeps like rocks but I can't shake the feeling that I'll wake them up, even if I've never woken them up by showering before. //Screams internally//

Right now im thinking about how my family and I have 30 days to move out of my home. We were served last night. We did nothing wrong, the landlord sold the house. (ive moved 11 times now, all very similar situations.) And im just wishing I had someone to lean on. My family is too stressed out to get any real support from them, and all my best friends live far away. I also just got out of an engagement where the guy ended up abusive. But i'm also thankful that I have 30 days, its better than nothing. Im grateful for my family, and my pets, and the internet. And I have food, and clothes. Im counting my blessings here.

That I don't know where I'm going anymore, and that I need to organize myself, to have structure in my life.

Anxiety and depression getting to me

a girl who used to be a close friend texted my best friend a really mean message making up situations to make her sound like a terrible friend. i had a huge fight with the girl who sent the message and now she hates both of us. i just cant believe that someone who i used to be close to and i thought was so nice actually hated us the whole time. it makes me sad because we were sooo nice to her and always lifted her up and included her and were GOOD friends. in return she and her friend always left us out and made us feel bad about ourselves, and she tried to act like WE were the ones who hurt HER. now my best friend is my only friend. :(

Physics test tomorrow

am i ever gonna get past this time in my life where im just surviving? when do i get to start living? its not just monetary success,but happiness in my soul, right?

I feel really bad about my bald spots. I want to wear my short hair but I still don

Am I ever going to just go for it and not have this feeling inside me of being scared. Am I ever going to be able to be successful and not let my anxiety get the best of me?