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@Starlinghannibal dude or girl dont give up you have so much to live for wether you realize it or not. There is good in the world, find it! You can be greatness! Plz dont give up. Keep fighting. Every day every night keep fighting! You can do it.
@Starlinghannibal Trust me. I literally just found this site today because I've given up on life today. I just came here to see how other people were feeling.
@Silverlining356 its a great site just having a platform to spill your thoughts is really helpful and finding the right listener for you can also make a big difference in your life. Hope someday you get to a better place mentally
Just how much stress I'm under to not only do the little things like take a shower and get out of bed but also the expectations I have at school and on top of that still trying to cope with my ptsd and social anxiety it's just a lot right now
Ive been alone for 5 years...not trusting anybody and refusing any physical contact with anyone. I was too tired and sick for that. Some weeks ago I met a guy...someone I would never think that could be attracted by a person like me...and well, thats the same he told to me... I saw you but I was too shy to talk to you...I would have never thought someone like you could be attracted by a person like me...this gave me a lot to think about... So many times we loose opportunities in life just because we think we are not enough!
so thankful for the supportive people in my life.
Last year, was bad and ended up in a treatment center and i am scared it might happen again, despite the meds and continued therapy
I told someone that I love them, but Im scared because Im going to get attached and then theyre going to leave me.
How to get through the day
Is how ironic the situation I find myself in is. I yearn for some sort of deep human connection but am too scared to reach out and actually talk to any human beings. The idea of talking to people is plausible even somewhat pleasant in my mind but, when an opportunity to actually talk arrises my anxiety prevents me. It is easier to talk to faceless strangers on the internet than human beings directly in front of me. And I've struggled with this concept for about 5 years, with little to no improvement. Maybe some part of me doesn't want to change, it's easier to stick with what is familiar, even if it isn't comfortable.
that I feel really anxious and angry. I want to feel good in my skin. I want to feel happy. I don't want to hide behind pills or weed to make myself feel better. will i be this way forever? ugh