The biggest obstacle that stands in my way right now is....
My obsession over my ex
@lovingCity7087 i feel the same way :( i had a 5 and a half year relationship. I knew this guy since i was 12 years old. It felt like love at first sight. I couldnt stop thinking about him and when got together, broke up, got together and broke up. It wasnt a serious relationship but then when i turned 14 we got into a serious relationship which was 5 1/2 years together. But we broke up 2 years ago, and now i feel obsessed and defeated. I feel like i cant do nothing to help myself to forget about him. Idky i cant let go, half of me has moved on and half of me havent let go. I feel so many emotions for him, good and bad. Im so confused when it comes to him. Is it love? Or is it an obession or a disorder? I dont know. I always think of him and i always day dream of him. He doesnt show he cares for me still. He ignores me sometimes but when he sees me, it's completely different, i seem careless and distracted while he seems like he really loves me! :( i think i am obsessed with him, he can hurt me and i wouldnt care. I think.
@Varonicuh I totally feel you. I was just broken up with my ex boyfriend of 2 years long distance... it is almost been a month (give or take 3 weeks now) since he broke my heart. He was my 1st love and relationship so i put my all into it, but i'm like relationship number who knows for him. he left me in the most painful way and moved onto a new gf the same day he broke up with me, and when i was at my lowest. i too felt defeated and replacable, especially thinking back to how he use to tell me how i will be able to move on quickly and he is replacable. strange how it is the exact reverse. i still pine over him, yet i'm half moved on. I have a love-hate feeling for him. It is the worse feeling to want him back into my life, while hating him for putting me through the pain. I don't even have the heart to tell my friends how i wish i can have him back. My friends want me to delete him from my life completely, but I don't want to. It hurts to see him so happily moved on, but its like a bittersweet feeling for me because i couldn't give him the happiness the new gf can give him. So now I'm obsessing over him, and missing his love and touch. Be strong ladies, we can get through this! As the saying goes, "If you love that person, let them go. If they come back to you, then you two are meant for each other."
Fear!
finding the motivation for me to be a better person
The burden and depression that keeps on giving me negative vibes.
School :(( SO DIFFICULT
Getting a handle on my codependency issues.
Controlling my Anxiety and depression so that way nobody knows
Worrying about and trying to manage how others feel and react towards me
Just being shy and not talking to anybody but my family and my best friends. Im homeschooled and I dont really get to interact with many other people but Im trying to get a job so I can work on being more outgoing.
Knowing what I really want to do
