The first thing I thought this morning when I woke up was........

When I woke up this morning the first thing I thought was.....Why am I still here

I'm sleepy

What is the point of waking up anyway?

Thinking that this day is going to be a challenge to get through and hope it ends quickly because I wanted to relax and I know I won't today

It's finally the weekend...why am I getting up early again?

How much time do I have until I actually have to get out of bed

Why cant I have my own life and Home? Also I need a job.

The crazy nightmare inside of a dream I just had.

Do I know what time it is based on how much light is coming through the window?

I thought about him. That was my first thought. Why he bailed. If he texted me through the night and I didnt hear the ringtone I set just for him. The aggressively loud old phone ringtone, that could wake even the heaviest of sleepers. He didnt. There are notifications on my phone from the dating apps I have, but no notification from him. There are plenty of suitors who wouldnt bail on me, yet my first thought is of him.