The first thing I thought this morning when I woke up was........

I woke up thinking how amazing it is to be married for 10 years today and how much I look forward to many, many more.

How bizarre my dream was and how sad I was about the fight with my boyfriend the night before.

Why can't I just die.

Another day is here

Thank God it's almost the weekend.

I don't want to get upbut I have to

At least it's friday

still trying to get over a painful breakup. first thing that i woke up to thinking (and it was the thing that woke me up), my ex. how i miss him yet how i feel betrayed by him. i was angry at his new gf. angry at how and why he broke up with me. angry and left to think that he got a sugar mama, and how i thought illness upon their relationship, then took it back and said that i'm happy for him though. angry, but happy for him.

then i got up because i got a message from a really nice guy that ive been chatting with lately. he has been nothing but positivity to me, so i told myself that i'm a stronger and positive person than a few weeks ago, than i was for the past 2 years.

I don't want to wake up anymore

The first think I thought this morning was "why am I still alive? what purpose do I have in this life? everyone's better off without me" and I have this empty feeling in my chest

I really miss you. I wish I didn't need you as much as I do.