My boss keeps chaning the plan for what my work schedule will be. We had agreed that I would only work these hours for a few months, but that not longer appears to be the case.
I am having a hard time to sleep, so I am constantly tired and having headaches.
@Obsessedcat Since when has it been this way?
@AussieLeo it comes and goes. The last time that I had troubles falling asleep was 5 weeks ago. After one day that I had slept 17 whole hours, it was okay for a while. It's been like this for two weeks again now.
Of toxic people. Who tries to control everything
- I'm afraid of not graduating
- I let something fall and my guitar got damaged/scratched
- I let something slip and it scratched my new expensive sunglasses that I need to see
My mom did not listen to me at all today she blamed me on something that essentially even my fault it was my sisters I had an emotional break down and I was so pissed and stressed out
I have had a rough time getting my parents to understand what it's like to be a teenager under so much pressure. It is difficult for them to see that the way they push me, makes me feel like if I'm not perfect by there standards, they will be disappointed in me. I struggle with loneliness and low self worth. Today I asked my father to go surfing with me because he is the one who taught me how to do so. He said he didn't want to because his chair was too comfy. At first I really was just upset but then my brother came up to him and asked if they could go surfing together. Of course at first our father said no, but he eventually gave in. That's when I got really angry. It didn't last for long however because I ended up crying from the feeling of not being wanted. I understand I over think situations sometimes, but I can't help how I feel.
Toxic people going around destroying people's lives. Then blaming you for everything. Being used and thrown away. Not feeling wanted, needed or loved.
@Iamhereandicare
I understand that anger. I had an incident happen a few years back- well more like 5 years ago with a toxic person. They are out of my life now, thank god! But...it's like I can't let go of what was done. It's in my mind and I just can't let go. Another incident happened more recently-within the last 7 months with another toxic person that almost cost me my husband and my life. It cost me my unborn child's life :( Pretty much when I felt like my whole world crashed down around me. I felt unwanted and unloved. I lost my baby. It hit me hard.
@BrokenHearted2018
So sorry you had to go through that. These people are so evil. They go around destroying people's lives and then move on to the next victim. They don't have a drop of empathy. I am also very sorry for your loss. That just makes me angry. If you ever need to talk hit me up. 😢
@Iamhereandicare
Thank you so much. It all still hurts inside you know? That loss haunts me. I just so badly want to let these people have it so they know what I went/am going through. I am here as well if you ever want to talk. I am so sorry that you are feeling that way too. It's really hard for me to understand why people feel the need to destroy another person's life. Honestly when I talked to a friend about one of the situations, they were beyond shocked with what happened. And I didn't even go into full detail about it because I gelt that I couldn't without being judged or without my husband being judged by what happened. These toxic people tried to control our lives and it almost ended very badly. Well one thing ended badly already of course because of my loss. But I just don't feel comfortable opening up completely to any one of my friends. It's hard keeping this in.
Hey I'm here because I've been trying to be that cool girl that everyone likes for so long I don't know who I am right now . I'm bisexual but I haven't told anyone not even my dad because I feel like I'm letting him down because he hates gays and lesbians so I don't know what to do😞
@braveFriend2711
You are you. When you stop trying to fit into other peoples image of you, things may make more sense. And, in the mean time, if people are disappointed or judgemental because of what you want or how you feel it's their cross to bear. Please don't ever be sorry for being you
I work with irresponsible and selfish people i cant shout at or maybe beat up coz they're my bOss....
Im angry at myself for being a coward....
