I was planning on meeting my friend after weeks of not seeing them today, but their girlfriend decided to tag along after already seeing them before. So now I dont want to go because I would be major third wheeling. Im just really annoyed that I really wanted to just see my friend but their girlfriend always has to be in the way of it all.
I'm really angry with myself because since the past few days not only have i made a fool out of myself i have also made a fool out of someone else with me and now everyone will be laughing at us and making out we are short of a few and that will probably the instigator encouraging someone in there position should know better i feel like we are being treated like some sort of animals by making us beg and apologize for something that someone misunderstood i feel so low
I don't know how to be emotionally vulnerable to anyone. For years, it's been easy to pretend like the only emotion is "fine" and am only realizing now that it's not the way I want to live my life. Wish I had found out sooner and could find a way to stop self destructing all the time. Feels like I ruin my future at every turn and it's one emotional rollercoaster after the next. I may feel emotions but can't figure out how to show others how I really feel. Until then I'll just be angry that I feel so alone.
Because my second to oldest sister is acting like a wvkdbkendkwndlbwkdnkwnsldnkd
She can be so ignorant and aggravating sometimes I swear
Because my mother's in the hospital, and I can't stay with her, now, because the lady who's over the department my mom is in, busted me for it. So mad at her for not letting me stay.
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i have made a complete fool out of myself since the past year and more since the past few days i can't keep friends so why do i bother trying they either use me or they are embarrassed of Me when people don't have no one they make out I'm their friend and as soon as they find someone else they dump me and say hurtful things this started since i was 11 years old and it seems to continue
Me typing up why I am angry isn't going to make me feel better.
( I'm sorry I'ma Moody Booty today)
people treat me like really badly one minute they nice to me the next they turn on me what about the promises they made its like they have forgotten
My mother thinks my apology isnt sincere (when I meant it), Ive going through some b.s. with my stupid ex, Ive been very bitter today. Which sucks, royal.
