Because I know when my narcissist husband gets home the bullshit will start all over again. Every night it's like living in a war zone.
@courageousone
its none of my business but why dont you just leave him?
My ex got my divorce app by a courier , she was extremely mad because she didnt think I would actually file for divorce, she thought Im locked in this abusive relationship forever ! Now she sends me the worst of emails ! Im moody because she has my daughter and I hate how I have to wait while she gets to be with her while Im away ! Not fair !
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Finished a 12 hr nursing shift short staffed cos my half baked manager cocked up the numbers and is a Muppet
When I reached out online to try to make a friend I was made fun of and called as troll for asking.
...i feel so horrible. i cant so anything but cry until theres nothing left to cry out. i would usually say that i feel alone and that i have friends but at the same time i dont. but today, i for sure was told by someone i care so much about that they were done with me. she was someone i could tell anything to. she said we just didnt click anymore and our friendship wasnt working. she was the last one i considered to be able to talk to about anything, and i dont have that anymore. i knew we were having problems lately with each other but i didnt do anything because i thought it would pass but she realized it and so its done. then, another friend who usually takes her side on everything told me that i cant be her friend because our friendship isnt working either. i've never felt so alone. i cant even talk to anyone in my life about this. that's how i know how alone i am. when i have no one to talk to. i just dont know what to do anymore.
@lostmarshmallow I don't have a lot of friends, but i know I can actually call them friends, because they have been there for me for so many years, as well as I have been there for them. My understanding of a friend is someone you can rely on at any time, no matter if it's all fun and games or it is a crisis in the middle of the night. And if someone can change their mind on being someone's friend, it isn't a friend at a all. I hope you will find someone you can really call a friend.
Today I am moody and not sure why...could be anything.
I am moody because I am out of control.
@Megmandalorian
i totally understand you I have reached a new level of not having control
My emotions messing my day up but at least I am noticing I am not my emotions .... I am learning woo hoo!
I haven't slept a wink