Going through hell
Hi thanks so much for the kind words from people here
I have one listeners and thankful for them
but can't find anybody else
had bad experiences here as many of you know with listeners
and even having to repeat things can be way too much to cope with and a trigger
I am recovering from trauma with therapy my therapist is the best I could ever have
but for over a month everything for me has got worse
I am at the end of an extremely long journey and I have alot of fear of getting well
I've basically never been well before so of course its the fear of the unknown and other things too
even talking about it at times can be too much
it kind of feels at times like I am getting worse even though I am not
and its all too much to cope with
I have so many frightening and upsetting thoughts and feeling
it took alot to come here and post this but when you feel desperate sometimes you need to share it with someone even if you don't know them
I can't deal with negative things as the moment from other people its too much i try to avoid it
so if you have anything negative to say here or to me please don't
but if anybody here has anything positive and supportive they can say I'd be ever so thankful
and sending Love and a hug to anybody who would want that
Farrah
I've had more bad experiences
this place with the listeners is shocking
I've had so many bad experiences
I am really considering leaving soon
while its good some are good I've not found anybody in the same time zoon
and so that's made it more difficult
I think its dreadful what goes on here
and I am not the only person either who has had bad experiences
Hi Farrah17
I’m here to listen
Writing is catharsis.
If you find the process of re-explaining your thoughts to each listener, perhaps you could have an anonymous blog where you write out some initial thoughts that the listener has to first read before conversing with you. That way you'd know if the listener put in the effort of understanding it first. May or may not work, just a thought experiment..
Besides that, you making the effort is itself a courageous step. Time will heal. Please don't give up. Listen to everyone, but in the end make up your own mind.
Peace and love
@desdinovad
Hi
People could be mean..I also face same but I have learned to revert to them. Tit for tat
@Farrah17
I think that you have been extremely brave, couragoeus and pro active. So, please give yourself the credit you deserve for all of that. Life can be a tough journey, yet you are showing your strength by reaching out for help and speaking your truth. All of this life business is a massive learning curve, no matter what stage we are at, or what curve balls life has sent our way, or our age, etc.
The reality is that life is challenging and you have done immensely well to reach out, to ask for help and to be willing to take it on board and try. Life will not always feel this painful and we all need to focus on the possible wonders that lie ahead. My own life has been painful, then beautiful when i met my soulmate and now hellish since he passed. But, this is not about me. It is to illustrate how radically life can change and change for the better. Keep the faith, get through each day and the joy, peace and happiness that you seek.....will be yours. It may just take time, so keep focused on all the positives that lie ahead of you. Because, i know that they exist. Love and hugs xxx
@sooty41
wow your words are so sweet thank you so much
I am deeply sorry about all you've been through
sending you alot of safe Love and hugs if that is ok with you ?
@Farrah17
Farrah :
I have had good experiences in two chat rooms :
Trauma Support chat room and the Sharing Circle chat room.
@hounddog2021
thank you
@Farrah17 - Sorry you are feeling down. I also have similar issues related to PTSD. Anyway, I just wanted you to know you are not alone. We are all in this together. Sending positive energy your way.
@Botoga
thank you so very much
sorry about what you are going through
sending you safe love and hugs if its ok ?
@Farrah17
Thank you! Sending positive healing energy your way. Be well. :)
Sending hugs to you 🤗 too.
thank you
@Farrah17 how you feel today?
@Johncena40
thanks for asking not good I appear to have lost my friend as well so its really hurtful and upsetting triggers my issues
hope you are ok