Hello

hi everyone,

i stumbled upon this website while I was helplessly trying to google my way to fix how i am feeling.

I havent been the happiest person in a long time, the closest person in my life (my beautiful partner) has known this and brought it up with me on many occasion but I tended to bury my head in the sand and not accept what she was saying to be reality.

In the last few weeks I think Ive had some what of a breakdown and really hit some form of rock bottom. I now understand that I need some help to get past this, its at the point where it is controlling my life, effecting my work and ruining my relationship with my partner.

‭My head is always a chaotic mess, I get so anxious and stressed out over things that are really just normal everyday requirements. Ive also this past week been extremely sad and have moments of uncontrollable crying.

I always thought I just had anxiety and it would be okay, that I could just ignore it and it would get better. But now that its coupled with this extreme sadness Im feeling very lost.

I am booking an appointment with a psychologist today, something that I should have done a long time ago but never did. Better late than never right?

Im a 23 year old with my life ahead of me and it wont be well spent living it how I currently am, considering how bad Ive gotten, I dont want to get any worse.

i often feel so guilty because of the stress I put on my partner,she doesnt understand how much pain I am in and that is causing her so much pain as well.

thanks for listening.