I am Rose

Hello, I'm Rose. I joined 7cups about a year ago and I love it here. I'm a listener because I have always enjoyed helping others and I feel that 7cups is a great way to be able to reach people whom I would not otherwise be able to. My username is UntilThen because to me it symbolizes that things will change and I will be with you every step of the way.

I would like to tell you a bit about the things I have been through so that you can better understand where my words come from, why I am a listener, and what I am able to help people with. Note that none of these experiences have made me uncomfortable with the topics they're associated with. I think that having had these experiences better enables me to help others.

I am a biologically female, gender-questioning, polyamorous pansexual. I was sexually/physically/emotionally abused for several years as a small child and again for a year as a teen. I have lived with hallucinations and occasional delusions since the age of nine. I struggled with self-harm for several years of my life but have found coping mechanisms that work for me. I used to struggle with drug abuse but am currently a couple years clean :D I have lived though 3 suicide attempts and have lost a close friend and a partner to suicide as well. I was homeless for several months this year and still live away from my family due to abuse. I have been depressed for all the time I can remember and also struggle with anxiety, OCD, and PTSD.

I love to help others more than anything else, and am uncomfortable with nothing. I personally believe that helping others is the most valuable thing you can do to improve the overall quality of people's lives. I consider it my personal goal in life to make it easier to get help and to help others. I am a dedicated guitarist and singer. I love to write songs and stories as well. I love South Park, BoJack Horseman, Rick and Morty, and the NoSleep Podcast. I would like to work in the mental-health field and hope to spend my life helping people.