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User Profile: 72114js
72114js February 27th, 2015

I know this is going to sound very stereotypical of me, since I'm a teenage girl, but my guardians have been making my life absolutely terrible. I don't have many friends to talk to, the only person I have is my boyfriend. For some weird reason, my guardian decided to hate him with a passion. He has become my one and onlysourceofhappiness. Other than that, I have nobody. I've triedcounseling once before but decided to not continue with it. (Why? My counselor started calling me a liar and made me beyond uncomfortable.) After that I have really had any opportunity to get any othercounselor. Thus, coming to an online support site. Anyways, back to the point, I've sat down with my aunt and have maturely told her things I wanted her to change, like her anger issues. She if fully aware of how close my boyfriend and I are, and that he's the only one who really know what to say to help me. But now she's getting a restraining order filed on him for no reason, making me transport schools so I can't see him. So now I'm back to my lonely life. I've struggled with self harm for about 3 1/2 years now and it hasn't gotten any better. All the stress in my house, mainly from my guardians, has been the cause of my relapses. My guardian has a terribletemper as I mentioned earlier. She tends to slam things, scream, take her anger out on me. Whenever she gets drunk is the worst. Onetime, when she was drunk, she has accused me of stealing $100 from her and she was screaming and demanding that I give it back. I hadn'ttaken anything from her. She called me names and said I was lying. Then, she flipped over her small coffee table and ran towards me and hit me three times. I ran to my room and locked the door because I had no clue what to do, she'd never gone that far and physically harmed me. She yelled, threatened to put me in foster care. That's only some of the things she does. She constantly puts me down and makes me feel like a worthless person. And I can't get away from her. Now that she's taken away the only person who can help, I'm lost. Adding to this, previously, I had attempted to kill myself two times by overdose. And recently I've made a combination of different medications to hopefully do the trick. I've tried my hardest to stay alive. I'm just looking for some help and maybe some coping tips. Thanks

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User Profile: PuppyLove13
PuppyLove13 December 11th, 2016

@72114js Hey sweetie <3 I am soo soo soo sorry that you haven't received a reply in so long! Gosh, you seem to be going through soo much! I think your "guardians" are wrongly named because someone needs you guard you from them.. It's so sad that they would mistreat you and tear you away from your source of happiness.. I do hope that you found a way to meet your boyfriend after that.. I'm so sorry about that.. I hope you haven't tried to OD again.. I tried it thrice but I think I finally realised I should give up on death and not on life.. I hope you have done the same and I am extremely anxious and eager to hear from you again :) PM me if you need to talk to someone <3