New to 7 Cups in January 2020? Say Hello Here & Meet Others who Joined in January too!

1 not ok , feeling overwhelmed and defeated . 2 my 5mnth old daughters 3rd MRI in April. 3 my sister told me about it

I am searching for foster parent advice and support. I am sadly not finding this any where i look. Advice needed stat.

A Hurricane of Brokenness; Euphoria Bound

{Disclosure: If I'm doing this post/thread wrong, please forgive me, I've tried to create a thread of my own a few times and the system is not allowing me, via the website, not the app.)

Okay, so how do I write this post introducing myself? Who am I, is what I thought, when I was requested to make a thread here, to introduce myself.

I still don't know where to start, however, I would say if I had to start somewhere, that I am lost and need to be fixed. I am broken and I have been for a long while. I think there are so many things to be fixed, renewed, repaired, removed, replaced, appreciated or destroyed in epic fashion, about the me, that I am now.

I know that my messages are usually to long, be it an email or text and most of the time, I the reader doesn't know me, they will not understand my messages.

I would say that, for sure, I am complicated, I'm simple, I'm definitely needie, clingee, sometimes a recluse, sometimes wickedly independent and want to be left alone to my own time, space (and music) an introvert, unless I know you and feel unjudged and comfortable - than an extravert I can transform into, ever so quickly! I am defiant and am defeated. I am uncompleted.

But I also am loving, caring, sickining sweet, a tomboy, creative, silly and love to be happy and to feel loved and to have everyone around me and in the world feel loved and happy too!! #WorldPeaceAndLove

I need to quit cloves, diet soft drinks, I need to start drinking water, exercising and get rid of this overly thickness and these hips, I need a better relationship with my child, I need to learn to love myself, I do not think I have ever done that! I need to stop letting people walk all over me. I need to stop procrastinating!!!! I need to get 8 hours of sleep a night, instead of 2. I need to become mentally strong somehow? When you Google that, it gives you brain games?!?! I want to be able to block all of the second thoughts and extra thoughts running through my head, paralyzing me, numbing me until I can't do anything, when I have countless things to do!!! I wish I wasn't a ball of anxiety. I wish I could take back dumb things I say, because I'm nervous and do not like awkward silence. I'd add to the list, I wish I could spell better, but that's what talk to text is for, except when I sound too country or speak to fast. Lol
There's countless things broken in me, some worth noting, some can stay broken or empty, I just want to learn to love myself and be happy most moments of most days.

Apparently I need to get rid of childhood trauma and a few adult trauma issues too, but I've tried EMDR therapy a few times and it has not worked and of course I've seen countless therapist and psychologist. But I haven't seemed to really click with any. I mean it's all in who you are and how people react with you and if you feel comfortable and safe, but like one time when I was 17, the lady didn't shave her legs or underarms and that just freaked me out! So to each, its own. Now that I'm an adult I have met a few females like that, doesn't mean I'm in love with the idea, or the idea of not using hygiene products, I guess I can just deal with it better now, turning my head the other way and stop breathing through my nose in some instances. The world takes all kinds!! So everyone has a place. Just some people's places should be away from other people's places. lol. I also have studied Buddhism, as you can see, I need to still learn to be like the eagle and just observe, not judge, I can't help it!! I want to! I've tried; however, even if I see a tree blowing in the wind, and I saw it leaning to the side I thought it shouldn't, I'd be judging it.

I am not mean or rude and do not understand people that are. I do not want anyone upset around me and I'll be silly around then, until they are no longer upset (it's my coping mechanism) I would never hurt anyone's feelings on purpose, EVER and I would go out of my way to ensure if I did on accident to prove that I am sorry and I did not intentional do it on purpose and I want to fix it and make them hurt no longer. I do not know why I put up with, what I put up with, but wish I was stronger and didn't put up with things people say to me or ways people treat me.

One of the things the bot asked me for the questionnaire to receive a one-on-one listener was do you feel like you have a good support system and companionship? No, to both.

And I love that 7Cups is thinking about doing the live group chat 24/7.

But I will say, I feel like some members are better listeners and talkers than some of the listeners, that's no one's fault, but adults should have the option to chat one on one. Friends and people you connect with are hard to find, it would be great if 7Cups helped us all find better connections with people we could relate to, or complete opposites that just click too. #WorldPeace via #7CupsOfTea

Also the website and apps need some additional work, but it looks like this 7cups team is on it!! Keep up the great work 7Cups Team! Even with the donation requests, every little bit helps!!

I originally googled, phone number to call or messaging system for support for non suicidal. Because I am not suicidal, but who couldn't use someone to talk to sometimes? Someone unbiased? Someone in the same or different part of the world. We all get sad and lonely and thankful I'm not on social media to increase or decrease those feels... I am thankful for the idea of this site and app and program and hope for 7 cups to continue to blossom!

Lastly, being "Lifted" is the Most Bestest Feeling in the Whole Wide World!

Those who have been "lifted," know what I speak of! When all of the overbearing thoughts usually racing non-stop through your mind, suddenly end. There's no groundhogs day then, the story, the situation, the state of mind, never the same and it's poetic in that way!

And I wish you all the most beautiful of evenings (or days, depending on where you are!)

@Tazzie

Goodevening.am doing just fine.

This year,i look forward to becoming a better person and to be happy (positive vibes).

I came across 7cups of tea while surfing through the internet and am so glad i came across this lovely community of lovely people

Hello!

Im happy I found this app. My name is Karla and Ive been dealing with depression for about 15 years. Im sure that I had depression as a kid, but it never became an issue until my late teens.

Ive been in different treatments and Ive seen the helped that theyve provided me. I was doing well until last November. Usually Im able to manage depression well, and youll see me happy most of the days. However Ive noticed that Ive been depressed more frequently. The past holiday season was extremely hard, though Ive survived, things became hectic.
Today has been hard, and Im glad is over. Yes, its been a roller coster but I hope that I continue to count my blessings

Hello,

I am a human being that struggles with social anxiety and emotional instability. I am shy and people generally don't like me because I tend to be very blunt and brutally honest, because I don't lie and I feel like softening the truth is a lot like lying. It's nice to know that there are other people in the world who also struggle with similar problems. Makes me feel less alone, I guess.

Hello,

My name is Anna, I'm 26 years old. I cannot remember a time when I did not have depression. I'm a divorced single mom and a bi woman.

While I have been actively suicidal in the past that is not the case now. I'm actually in a better spot than I ever have been. Even still, I know that I'm not in a good place so that's why I'm here.

I have complex PTSD, depression, anxiety, ADHD, and thyroid disease.

Even with all the things I have to be excited about I find myself disassociating more and more. It's effecting my job and my normal day to day.

I've only been on antidepressants shortly after giving birth before they realized I had undiagnosed thyroid disease....I've always wanted to try to go without...but now i think I may need to face the reality that medication might be necessary.

Hello everyone.being here and reading other people life experiences makes me feel charged and motivated because i know am not alone with this feeling.i am not wierd and am not unusual.AM ONLY HUMAN.

I'm new. I moved and am not sure about the psychologists here. I was thinking about trying TalkSpace or BetterHelp but decided to try this first.

I'm an autistic adult in my later 30s who lives on the US East Coast. I also deal with anxiety and insomnia - I put up a post about insomnia in the autism forum. I don't want to say too many specifics beyond that to keep this anonymous.

@Tazzie

Im not doing so good, my relationship of 7 years ended and Ive had to move into a new place on my own. I dont know too many people in the area so Im lonely but also still so cut up about my relationship ending that Im finding it hard to connect with anyone even established friends.

In 2020 Im looking forward to healing (hopefully) and becoming more secure in myself as a person.

I found 7cups when I was googling resources for lonely people.